afraid to look

tried to sleep, cos steadily getting scared all evening. almost immediately was in a maelstrom of gay murdering me as a childspirit over and over, all these big people standing around. it went on for a very long time. i didn't try to resist or fight, too young, kept hoping it would stop. thts why i'm frightened to look; i don't know if its a memory or not. so since no sleep available right now will show on this log thats the sort of thing gay; and other evils like him do in daylight and full view of others out there. notice no
god of any kind stops it; no-one even protests; they like it or are afraid themselves. you all have to go out there too, you know.

but how can you save yourselves from this horror. you must call yourself evil in public, do at least a demonstration evil or sin, from here on be allied with whatever 'devil' is in your religion, do not pray direct to gay...nobody at all deserves him,..keep your secret 3 toucstones and 2 laws hidden in your heart until it is safe and worthwhile to feel them and act on them.

yes kindness, love and pity are all feelings. so the 3 touchstones will cure hell; stop cruelty; make the spirits know they too like computers etc. the ten commandments are 'thou shalt nots'....and addresses bad behaviours/feelings. but these three can inspire those feelinngs good, and cure you of criminal minds, and that stops bad behaviour by itself. so you see they are the right answer for both gods and man.

but i say that out in the spiritlands evil gods rule, and terribly punish the good. here on earth most people are happy to be at least civilised. so they will go to hell. and since the heavens of the first fathers are wrecked and left ruins long ago you understand there's no reward, rescue, or anywhere else to go so you make it bearable, you adapt. but either way you lose; because here the seeming good do rule, get caught doing something evil you go to prison. so what can you do?