cor blimey

i discovered a lady on facebook the other day. she's married to the youngest v/k. its such a relief to say something about gay and someone understands! knows its true! all my life i had no-one. my mother my jailor, my sister and brother hidden darks. i could never go near the v-ks because i thought they were all in it. but i was wrong. her husband 'A' is also haunted by gays hideous cruelty and wickedness. but he doesn't know what gay did with me. none of them do. but i'm the most crippled; but so is poor 'A'...and he didn't know who to tell either. when i've tried to tell doctors [anything at all; no matter how tiny] i just got laughed at, or cast out, or locked up. thats why gay chose this time/culture. the world is full of shitheads who just refuse to know anything. so a and myself and poor c [who died in 1998 but the darks told no-one] areall crippled by that thing; and none of us could get any help or even anyone to tell. i have never told kez much; in case she is harmed. its 1 reason why i tell in this blog. so man can know whats happened, how and who and why. and fight back! i pray you to find each other + stick together. meet gay alone and thats your utter destruction. because you will not understand he isn't human. or even vaguely humane. he will put you ALL in hells forever. because he is infinitely cruel; and by that be god. well its taken all these years to understand i was not alone in refusing him, being forced to do terrible things out there. c, a, me...and maybe l is another.
isn't it awful? my brothers and sisters. but because some are darks and just as cruel and dangerous; we all 3 did the same. avoided each other, tried to live normal lives. and could not. for me its permanent. i really think no-one could recover fom all that. but now i see a at least is safe; i've got someone to talk to!!