the lady names

sort of a footnote. so this girl kept turning up in the attic and would sit before Gay day after day and whatever he did he couldn't make her evil. she took an awful lot off me. I called her daisybrain because she got very simple under that million year attack, so she must be also a begot but how she came to be with me I don't know. And Kay was a begot cut out of her Fathers belly and kept up above the Orb as his slave she has endured unimaginable horror all alone; she named herself kay. and i of course am Gerry. But somewhere along the line; we are not the same person by the way, just very similar and doing the same job.; we acquired names to remind us wot we were trying to do. So daisybrain wed and said her name was 'freedom in any language' =LIBERTAS. and Kay and me seem to be called VERITAS and CARITAS, but these are really what we aim for; our ideals; and anyway if you meet us you'd have a job telling us apart.

gay

so everyone nearly that was made by the Gt Father was good. The majority of them made by each Dove was good. Even the warped eagles, who only favoured their devil[black]sons made good people. And each of them was biased. The eagles damned the good even when they made them that way. the Doves the opposite; so you see why i'm reconciled and try to be friends with Satan and Yetzoah. to create someone in order to make them suffer forever is infinite cruelty. so you see they are all guilty, but the ideas, the pressure to do it? you all see now who it is. And because long ago he attained infinite power..remember he gets it by torturing spirits, and you are a spirit. So these huge Gods were afraidof him and began this awful game of scheming against the Doves who did the same and the Doves never knew until now that there were more than one Dove. there are 16.
Anyhow you see i've remembered and so because I teach them and they can see my memories and forseeings they all learn. So Gay is the prime cause of evil. And he inflicts on everyone infinite suffering. so you slam into Anat whatever suffering you find that cannot be rescued stopped or repaired. And his power will begin to fade. You get those little girls away from him, feed them let them sleep let them have comfort and finally let them grow up. And if its desperate slam them into Anat; because they are his source and supply of abilities and information. take me away and he will start to fall. Which leaves me on earth holding the black magic and evil spirits out that will destroy it. So my sister Christ Freedom is on her way to raise the dead of the past. Kay holds that thing up above the Orb, she does distract it. And now I have prayed to Anatta. we wait now. We all tremble on the brink.

so you have the history though theres more, but you can work it out now for yourselves. you have the antidote, you know whats wrong, you see where you are and now you really ought to talk to each other[both Gods at all levels and man]. or you get the awful kingdom of God screaming back into the past in an infinite regression into pain an fear..thats Jesus's kingdom I think. that will start when life on earth is stopped. so now do you see why i have to hold? and also be armed and sent? and why I have no futures worth having anyway, if that thing wins? so you see it really is my last life. and his. All you need to know for the last bit for today is that your everso 'holy' lord god and your everso terrible 'devil' are one and the same, And his name is Gay. He murdered all the good gods. just to get you.

two teachings

it occurred to me that i have to leave some way for everyone to climb out of the hells they're all in. now Gay teaches theDynamic Concepts. You know,the kind are the weak so evil blinds them lest they cure cruelty. ? now you see how true that is. and so on all the gentle virtues. anyway it winds up proving only the cruel are really kind and therefore fit to be God. And it blows your mind when you hear it in full. So the Gods all have his 'wisdom' like toxin in their hearts. And that is why they too have been cruel. But there is also the opposite version, which my sister [ Christ even Freedom, she took that name when she wedded her half of Lord Brent] left the attic and taught him. which is much the same but it introduces time and experience and ends that pity overthrows cruelty and the kind heal the blindness of the cruel. Which is why Gay hates and fears those who can pity or love or are just being kind. because you see if everyone had a go now and then these hells would be cured in a week. so now here is my teaching; the antidote [for those who dote on power and cruelty; which is all of you]. I teach here in case the Gods miss it out there because Gay is good at that. So if hey miss it YOU o child of the future, have heard it.

The Magic Touchstones.

LOVE SUM 1.

PITY IS GOOD.

BE KIND


now thats not spelt wrong. it means u try to love anything, even a flower, and thats a start. you practising love. real love, not some bally substance meant to enslave you and you need no hormones for this kind of love. so even the spirits can do it. so as you learn to love more and more you will rise level by level at least inside until you truly love, have time for everyone you meet.

Now none of the Gods created Pity it just happens to happen. but when you let one drop of pity enter your heart no matter how devilish you are no matter what you done that one drop of pity shall turn into an ocean and soothe and destroy that awful cruelty, and you will begin to save yourself. wash your ugliness away. climb up out of hell and stop scheming for power.

And if you are a bit weak, abit of a lesser being [hey don't worry, i'm one of those!] then know that kindness is your real nature. we all have it. if we didn't nothing at all could survive infancy. which is just as true for the gods, or do they forget they also live lives? so this is the easy one. and without it the first will not be quite real and the second take a long time to happen. so now you know. so tuck these magic ideas in your heart. just do them. and one day you shall be a God, and aim to Graduate. this is true. its builtin to the universe. if you learn you rise. also what you give to the universe it gives back; so from now give the universe nice things. and before you know it it won't be hell at all. then you can call it heaven. and also now you know if all else fails you have another home, another Father/Mother. Now begin!

Finally I only got two laws. but they are joined together,

CRUELTY IS FORBIDDEN..+..INFINITE SUFFERING IS FORBIDDEN.



And shout that at Gods til they asks you nicely to stop. which they will when they have learned it. So my name was once hoho or hovis or someting. so now you go off and be happy, have a good time; and remember all goodness just means Being Nice To Know.

i pray today

I survey the hopeful faces of the Eagles
And know they know who they are
What their natures really are.
I look on the white Doves
Who slowly reconcile themselves to the truth
About how they were made by the Eagles
And delberately programmed to fail
And be conceited and selfish.
And i see their timid conversations
As for once they all try talking
As they wonder about Anatta
And who is really the Evil One.
And to their combined surprise its none of them.
And I look with pity on my self
What an awful history
But now its ending.
And I look on all these souls
And lesser gods with the same friendly eye
They had to believe 'evil is the right answer'
Who had any real choice?
And under Gay so it is; but only for him
The rest suffer unimaginably forever
However they selfishly feel like winners now.
Unless someone stops him.
And brings him down.
And that someone is me.
Well aren't I the Messiah, whatever that is?
And a Queen of old,
Who shall like the mother tiger
Turn her claws on that which harms her children?
And aren't I the one
Through whom he did all these things?
And now spent years waking and remembering?
And since from the beginning Gay made me
His opposite, the adversary, the positive/positive
Who always was damned because I could never
Learn evil? like being innoculated?
I heard the deep voices of Anat-Anatta
They said; Anat NOT negative/negative
Anat deny active concept cruelty
We-Us shut the gates
Active concept cruelty another gate
Is-One goes to crumbles.
Anat-Anatta says NO.
Now strange god is with me always
He says his name EL
I suggest to these Gods he be their Governor
And their advisor from now on.
Because it is strange God
Who let me have all his prophecy so I saw it all
And remembered; and it is he
Who has been helper and friend
And it is in his strange but beautful eyes
Great tears of pity welling for me
So he knows pity; which makes the teacher
Of all the lot of you; because thats a graduate
You know.His mind not mine, the greatest of all.

And lo, I've asked them all
To see me as I am, weak and scruffy
And not brood on past wrongs
Which lets face it we all done terrible things
But as their only chance to get out of it.
These my charges, now i've finally
Worked out me sums
And therefore children even concepts
Like me from out of Anat-Anatta
But they didn't know.
So I kneel in desperation
Praying in my heart
Straight to Anattas, for their Angel am I
And also El'S strange angel
for he promised me this
O arm me ! O send me!
All the powers that be in this here/when
Came from you O Anatta
I ask you Anatta to know me
And give me powers that Gay never seen or imagined
Since now I have none; unless you
Count all that nasty black magic
Lest he defeat me all over again.
I think I know what happened
Anat sent me out just a messenger
To find out what was wrong.
And Great Father to send Gay back
But we did not remember
So I was captured and set up
To be captured and damned over and over
O let me destroy that Thing!
For it is a person no more
But the source of this disease cruelty
O arm me! and send me!
You know its time to go!
For you are us, the real Fathers,
Isn't that so?
O arm me! O send me!
And I will go!


And when they see it happening
Then they will know
That Anatta is real, not death...
The Anat-Anattas are their Fathers
And their home.

xxxxx

hello again

look i'm really tired so change the subject for a bit cos dunno aabout u but its getting harder; cos the next bits of history just get worse and worse. so lets rest. mind u just so u know i haven't been idle. well years ago now i oned with father seabreeze. the white dove, though there have been 16 in all. anyhow i'll go on with that later. wot iwas going to say i been telling the gods off something terrible an if they wasn't paying attention they've had some good slaps as well. that does include gt father because of course full of father seabreeze who knew nothing of all this i went for him. anyhow so all the gods have been clued in to my presence for years. and i have taught them like i teach u but wot wiv one thing and another although they now know i will help them they have had quite the most colourfully illustrated history /moral ideas etc lessons since any of them fell out of Anatta, so basically they sit up there in various states of shock and wonder except gt father who seems to be somewot slow in his wits. but anyway they all watch and listen, so u see a real graduate and a proper good god does wot is right even if they have got a few bumps and sore bottoms basically they know wot is wot and for your information they will someday like me and be even grateful. because its for everyone u know. yes the evil as well. well they had not much choice either u know. so anyway i do wot i do.

well now i must lighten your load, make your day in some way. never a good idea to send ones seekers to sleep in case they die of grief on you which is not a good sign.so i dunno lets do something different.

but wot? i will tell you a story. i wish this stupid laptop wld stop vanishing away letters lkie it does. its really an annoyance.

right. the story of the love of the King. Now the Queen in those days did not rule the people in the way that the foriegners think, she knew the traditions, and the gods of those days, and kept the daughters in good health in their birthings. in those days the stones were the gates of their gods and it was the Queen who kept them well. the Queen was never a maid for too long lest the gods be insulted there was always a king but the wise men and the wise women always knew which young man it should be because the people would watch as she went about so naturally as soon as she clapped eyes on this special knight the people would all know before midnight because like every people they all liked a good natter. so the Queen who was not usually that old because in those days you did not hang about when something good come along you never knew if some god might drop something on you so you was very pleased and everyone knew it. Because Queens like a natter as well.
So the young knight what was usually a lusty fellow and good at hunting and running about and generally managing to be somewhat undressed whenever the Queen was around and all that was usually well liked by the people because of having good manners and properly clean about his person well Queens like that would one fine day find himself before the Queen and they would be known to each other by their loving looks and all the people would go off and have a couple of beers. thats the salute of the people. Of course things were likely to be a bit sudden then so if the young man had not bedded the Queen by lights out then obviously he was one of the stupid ones.

so the Queen would be very nice all night and if he lived in the morning he rose wiv the sun and he was the king. now an enemy got all shirty and the wise elders counselled the king he should make himself scarce but being a young king and obviously he was a fighting knight the king got all shirty right back. so the Queen, for niether of them can command the other but must listen to their counsels and decide the proper way which is generally that its\a good idea to take the people away for a while but the king was insulted i expect it was the beer and so the king gathered the knights and off he goes to sort out these incredibly rude enemies.

so the bad news comes back by this really fast boy he runs in and alls lost! the king he lives but a load of knights just found the gods and the people rise up and scream their fear. the Queen is all the people have to talk wiv the gods. she is their mother or if a bit long in the tooth then their nan. well anyway this Queen is young and tender of heart. so she loves the king and the people listen to her telling hem what she thinks is right and so beautiful is she in her grief the people are roused in their anger. for after this is also their king, and they known the boy for years. so they march with everyone armed to the teeth, and the Queen sends the roots of the people the other way. i mean those daughters wiv child, the young and the old.and wiv them one wise one, to keep alive their ways so you see the people knew quite well that this is what love does, it rescues their good lord, they love their Queen and rise with her.

so they march right fast in the night despite the bad weather and at the dawn the Queen at the side of her King flings into battle and all are killed and so the rest of the people run away but for ever after they sing great songs of the lovers and the gods hear them. and so they do their god miracles and so these two in those dark places of death find each other and such is the power of their kiss the gods respectfully give them heaven and so they join them the gods and go on looking after the people there. for that is what love is, it goes on. and to the people all this belongs.

print it! don't let him keep u ignorant!

so second history began ages ago. and then when the great civilsations ut there was all of them destroyedgay went back but this time he did it alone. and he must have cut out of the poor dead fathers a great chunk of theirselves. carried them away and brought them back. by the way the dead don't rot there so you can go back and they still lie where they fell. but a bit dusty. and as i have said they are all like electric? so he just switched them on. cos now he'd got the power and the knowledge to do it. so these poor dears didn't know much except whatever he done to them sent them crckers. he didn't tell them who they were, just that he was god and evil and they have got to do the same be nice only to devils and they do this because if they don't he will destroy them. so those black sea-eagles out there now? yes they are the real gods but haven''t the slightest idea that gay isn't. so they obey him. slaves too. innit mad? but thats the gods for you. never like finding out you been had. so they only help love andrewardthe truly evil who are of course their worst enemies who will eventually eat them. but they didn't know that.never mind they just found out. specs they're thinking hard about this ame as you. we'll see if the truth sets them free as well.

now you see how vast is my age. you don't yet know the power that sleeps in me. but i digress. anyway the fag shops open now. will finish a bit more tonight. lates again. isn't it a drag? work work work. still its good for you. a man needs work. but i need my fags. be steadfast, come back and learn your lessons. otherwise you have no hope at all.

keep going 3or maybe its 4 i forget

so about this business man needs to go back and be a predator. hah! you sound just like gay. he likesyou, doesn't he? because you see what gay is? YES of ourse he is. so you want to be like him? i specs u do. its true the predators are top of the foodchain/pecking order. yes man has a killing instinct. of course. even gods and angels etc have that, never mind devils and all the wot have u. but allowed to take charge of a man and you get your murderers. allowed to take over a society..nazi germany, war in general, crime. so again you see how gay traps you? is not a man a man because he can read and write stories and poems and music? and a real man goes and falls in love whenever the happy event shall occur, which i don't know many tigers or bears can do any of them things and thats that. so now what do you answer me? these are the truths, i don't need tp prety up and call it a sermon. i tell you grow up. thats it. ancient kind of goodness and the only one to have survived gays constant meddling as he has done wiv the rest because of course i'm older than he is so now you see why i'm better than Jesus? i tell the truth, and now its obviouss even to you that i do.

keep going.

now a saint is a particularly noxious little crawlarse who thinks they are superior and want to be well in wiv god, who they believe will be extremely nice to them. they teach others even how to do it. so they all get et completely which is why you never see them again. and they gave up every pleasure to do it. so a saint is a chump. and thats that. don't try to be a saint you're here because you're men so stay that way. but be better, nicer, and more wise. going back to savagery and caves and rape and cannibalism is definitely going another wrong way. and you know that too. go on admit it! you cross the road rather than walk into a gang of ugly violent yobs? so does every true human. because they are vile and feral. so you don't like them why do u want to be one of thm? the honest answer is you don't.

We are all trapped because Gay has driven into our minds both desires which result in cruelty and 'good' ideals or religions which do the same thing. He is both you see. God AND the Devil. We must make out our own way/understanding/ideals. AND recognise that we must not fall back into his traps AND that we are weak, lowly, we don't know..

again a lesson.

and each religion is at war wiv every other, and all of them kill as easily as a dog craps. and all of them despise hate and enslave women. then you wonder why you got lousy sex lives? look at the way you treat women. are they happy, secure etc. because if they are not they will uncsly retaliate by being as horrible in bed as possible. and can u blame them? and anyway women have no girlgods to teach them or lead them or advocate for them. so you see all the religions gay allows are cruel. so learn to despise those adults who swallow religious lies and will kill to maintain their fantasy. you see everywhere gay enslaves. his slaves do the same. now you know these truths its time you grew up; and you know it. so anyhow what else? yes each religion has this fatal turn in it. they try to aim at being holy and so they hate sex, pleasure in general. now how daft is that? by definition all came from god, they are what makes life worth liveing, and there's fuck all wrong withem. so forget that 'sacrifice and be holy cobblers, enjoy your body, lve your loves. take [nicely!] the pleasure of life. now you know whats out there is tedious ot frightening and bloody sexless i'm sure you will give up that nonsense immideiately and never worry your head about it again.

the singing has stopped

so about religion. why does man, and not only man, but all the worlds, have so many religions? can't you guess? there's almost no food out there. those wars and the general nastiness of gay's slaves have turned the spiritlands in to so many deserts. what was once green and smiling is now wasres of sand and rocks. they have eas but because of their interference all that seems like a sea is really a way to go into lower realities. so u can't atually swim, you do you just fall into somewhere, you never know where because of the quadrillion cube. so they eat souls, which they see as white stuff, which is what we call love etc down here. so the gods have their religions to get the faithful to come to them, each one labelled dinner. then they send the sirit n its way back to the lifers here having forgotten they will do it all over again, Jesus even told you that. the harvest, the sheep, the fish? and you never cotoned on, because he told you truths but in parables. otherwise known as riddles. or lies. so the 'good gods' you know about every one f them does it. yes they give you moral codes. baby nes. or do you really think a grown man has to be told not to steal, murder, lie? you see thats perfectly obvious. you didn't need a bloody great god to tell you that. your mum could have said that and probably. so you see the gods have kept you enslaved and all the while been making you morons. prayer works if you really got that gods attention but all it is a converstion. you start getting mysterious nice felings, run! thats the start of 'union' you want to be et by gay? so stop. turn around and grow up. because you undertand that you are whats left of the gods/angels etc. so you are beginning to realise that a ot of this is YOUR history. because the fathers made whom they made and no-ones been made since. so you're all the same people over and over again. which is why neither your religions nor your lives teach you anything. they take your memory and now you see why. its cruelty. and farming. you are food. like animals. so now you see why you shd treat animals nicely. you are their exact brothers. aren't you?

last thing!

i just thought! the religionists who are all slaves of evil but think they are thoroughly decent will complain abou all my teaching of history and try to get it wiped! so now i charge you whoever you are, to print the lot right away and save it. you will need it all. so shall your children and all the futures. need it desperately. so get it safe and learn!

'holiness'

i don't know where gay got the idea of holy. do you see how he used it to destroy? and in fact now u begin to see who's creature Jesus was, telling men to be holy like god. perfect, when the gods can't do that so how shall man? u see he is evil now? taken a while but now u begin to see Jesus. you don't think so? 'let my enemies be torn to pieces before me' cast them [the chosen, thats me, some othe decent gods, and probably lots of jew!] into outer darkness....ringing any bells? Jesus is the son that seeth what the father does and does the same.
and what is holy? its helium gas, the saintly are so full they are globular. its a black gas out there but they are blind and can't see the truth. HEL.I.UM. so here we think white but there the seeing see black. so holiness without truth is evil. you might know when i just told you its gays idea. now i stop i'm tired. this is the truth and i know you scared but its going to get a ot worse.its time you was a man. knowing truth, no more silly myths, is what will do that. but i'm tired, so many typoes. time to sleep. hold your soul ready, there is more. be brave o man or woman of the future. holdfast, don't run away half taught, u need it all.

the lesson

so now o man in the future u see how gay turn all to evil which iscruelty. these girlgods he is even now tempting you to despise were gods daughters, as much as the ords were his sons, and without them being gentle and loving and joyful and inspiring of sexual love the gods would miss the good life, and their hearts began to die. so the spirits from then became less and less capable of feeling. became insane about rules and discipline, its quite unhealthy and these [laces and gods are nmiserable and dark, so now you see how we all need those girlgods. your lovers/mothers? and gay knew this, which i why he did it. now i in wisdom do offer you my white and good advice, go back to the past and raise them up. the girlgods who you will need so much more than you know. and leave whatever filthy religin you're in that does thses things, or tells men to be perfectly holy when man is half animal and so cannot. u understand now that thses are signs that gays false religion it is. so leave it and never go back. this is the truth, you don't need religion anymore. as you read this your mind will grow up.

in memoriam

so no-one ever saw a real girl god. i know how they begged and tried tp presuade, one even said gay was leading them all wrong. but the one i remember best impressed even Gay. she fought for life in a series of speeches. she guessed! she knew itwas something to do wiv me, and that i must be from some future so far off they'd never guessed so early you could come and go from the future so they never guessed its an impossible guess. and yet that lady god did it. she looked on me as they sawed at her neck 'u will repent! u will repent! oh have mercy in your day! don't you know this is heaven?' and then she was dead. a brave and brilliant woan. a girlgod. beautiful things. and so the gods did their best to enjoy being lonely forever, saying we are holy. because gay said so.

part 2

so we were standing in these halls waiting for the father to descend. we all thought it was just one father, but in fact there were seven. so when we went n ansaw him dead like coal pl panicked. of course i killed them. but on several levels at once its complicated. gay turned to me as the esser gods were in anguish and smiled saying 'who killed cock robin?' if they had heard that nursery rhyme they would have known who. it was him. so they not knowing that Gt Father still lived in their panic depended on gays sly advice. and none of them ever noticed me. though i was the only kid in that time and i spoke so strangely. so gay told them he was dead, that they were alone now and must be proper gods and do things that proper gods shd do. and gay told them women were vile and evil and violent and sexual animals. you are the gods, said gay, you must be holy. that means utterly chaste forever. so kill these vile things, even these lady gods. for they will lead you into sin. and so they id, very cruelly. there were no trials. i was asked as an inncent which ones shd die. so i said leave the lowly ones for servants, but all the could and would enjoy and endow their lovers with sex beautiful. so they did, the lords killed them all. their lovers, like them children of the father whose concept was love.

kay

now the fathers were coming down with their begots already forming within them. gay destroyed so horribly all but one. he dug her out of a athers belly i dunno which one and murdered the son her brother before my eyes. then he took kay up and up, to that nasty house place up above us all. and there she had to grow up, alone with that thing as he really is. fighting for life, sanity, to be let alone to live in all that awful fear. she has orange concepts in her eyes and blonde/blue with blue and white robes. and yet we are very connected, even though for all these billions of year i never knew she existed, never mind up there. those orange patterns tell you she is a true begot the only part of the fathers to survive. and she named herself kay, and is the true god [actually she isn't but she's all we have] and captive also to gay just like me, so gays the real god.
he made hr mke so may realities. which he then got her to fill wiv repulsive beings, and he taught them, so all of them are devils. then he got to make the quadrillion cube, whic is like a hypercube but it looks like a great swiss cheese and it controls the realities below like a slowly turning chinese puzzle box. so gay uses that too. last big thing she dud she encased everything that is his empire in a great weblike thing so its called the orb, after its shape. and it is absolutely huge.and we're all in it. both of them. a permanent nightmare, now you know it. isn't it?

part one

he trained me with great violence to turn myself at his command to a great shining white thing with baby blue eyes. and i am to kill whatever e says is evil. so thats me when i'm the angel of death as gay made me. its a baby. he says its evil she flashes like lightening and kills whatever evil it is. so back in time then we went both the lower and the high, and as the fathers were coming down to their creations i struck each one dead at gays command, believing what he said that they wereevil because they were black and like great fierce birds. now how very stupid. judging by appearnce. but you see children do that. the first to die was beauty. gay hates beauty, its always the first thing he takes. next was goodness. then your father, love. and so all the rest. now here gay and me did it over 5 /6 weeks. but to them it was all in the same instant. and also to gt father, who only found out wot it was a few weeks ago when i remembered and told him. so thts how the fathers died and all alive began to find hell everywhere in their lives.

wot become of the fathers

so this is going to break me a bit, bear wiv me this part is hard. in the attic u know gay ruined my mind, filled me wiv forseeing or something he done. all places and times murdering me over and over. i must not struggle or protest or cry out. or he doubles the pain. he went up and up, taking over every level aboe. to do it hesaid you sacrifice a chist, for the rules of evil demand this. so of course i was and a child, and as you see i'm not evil at all. so it worked. but who set up these evil rules? well he did! so why do it again? well only he knows. these places up there were sandy, lonely high up. and there every day in each one he would kill me. a crucifixion here, slit me throat there once he done a live gralloching. at first wotever gods was native there would watch. then protest [he killed those] and finally run away before we got there. its that bad.
there was a place with 12 neutron stars oerhead in a row. to me they looked like radioactive iron spheres. gay threw the13ne away, cos it was misshapen. and that was when he got to do timetravel proper.
which i don't think they were for actually. i dunno wot they for. but anyhow thats how he did eeything else. killed the gods yes every one.

first history

gay took me in just after the death ofGod. no-one knew there was another, Great Father sitting up there, alone and grieving, not understanding what happened to all his sons. so these the next orders of gods settled down and started to build these great civilisations. yes! in the spiritlands. and everywhere something like England is now. fertile and green amd sunny and flowers and wines, waters, books everything. but not tv as far as i know. i dunno why seeings how they ARE electric or similar, but no spritland got that far with tech stuff. so what did Gay do? well of ourse he got all involved in their quarrels and started wars and executing viciously executing each other. and these were the gods!
so after a very long time all those civilisations were destroyed and Gay of course took every opportunity to increase his power enslave whom he would, knowing as they did not what would become of them these his friends in evil. and so it went on for centuries. and his chief weapon is that little girl. she's the one he uses her wiv that black magic it works cos i am God so it must. but i'm a slave too; just as much as you.

the first march

i'd climbed out of First Place and all i found was like outer space. now spirit outer space is just like yours in many ways except you can walk, be naural and build there. the spiritlands probably ARE in your universe. certainly dark matter/dark energy sound interesting. so all i did was try to hide and go to sleep. Gay must have stayed back there for 1000 years. but there was nothing i could do. i had no power to go to futures and who was there to ask for help? and i knew nothing of Anatta because Gay taught me to fear 'death' more than him. quite the wrong thing. so while i slept Anatta sent Great Father in. Now gt Father is huge, a huge sea-eagle. so he's armed with powers and might, not to mention a good set of talons. so i think now Anatta meant him to kill Gay, but then he didn't he also had forgotten Anatta! so Gay watched him and saw he would create out of himself. so then he found me and woke me. and we went together into one of the Holy Creations like eggs, of the Fathers. But i was blind in my mind and could not remember what was before, so we went along. the Gods are dead! this terrible crying everywhere. And I could not understand that God was dead in his beginning, nor knew about the others, and never reflected that Gat was doing it and hewas therefore evil. and the Devil.