the first march

i'd climbed out of First Place and all i found was like outer space. now spirit outer space is just like yours in many ways except you can walk, be naural and build there. the spiritlands probably ARE in your universe. certainly dark matter/dark energy sound interesting. so all i did was try to hide and go to sleep. Gay must have stayed back there for 1000 years. but there was nothing i could do. i had no power to go to futures and who was there to ask for help? and i knew nothing of Anatta because Gay taught me to fear 'death' more than him. quite the wrong thing. so while i slept Anatta sent Great Father in. Now gt Father is huge, a huge sea-eagle. so he's armed with powers and might, not to mention a good set of talons. so i think now Anatta meant him to kill Gay, but then he didn't he also had forgotten Anatta! so Gay watched him and saw he would create out of himself. so then he found me and woke me. and we went together into one of the Holy Creations like eggs, of the Fathers. But i was blind in my mind and could not remember what was before, so we went along. the Gods are dead! this terrible crying everywhere. And I could not understand that God was dead in his beginning, nor knew about the others, and never reflected that Gat was doing it and hewas therefore evil. and the Devil.