what shall you feel for me? what is it you fear? another liar? a slow trap into misery?
look gay only picked on me in the beginning because i was a bit too truthful; quite unnaturally so. i think its a kind of autism you know. we guess i was a daughter of Anattas, right? so a maiden Queen, okay? then you pick it up again; i was one of the 'old gods' us in first place? we were rather human in many ways. right? now go forward in to first history? i was originally here on earth as teacher or maybe going on becoming a biggie?? gay said to me 'you would have been a great christ? but after he wrecked all we began to diverge until here we are in second history, and in this the last creation of the great white dove i named father seabreeze? and in this was made Rosalind one of the great female spirits, one of his secret Amours? okay so he never came in. but all my line of spirits [we each have various lower god-selves for each level of reality] was filled with hugely vast powers? Rosalind she held away; but the lowers all male were filled? so they losing their reason ran away and over the centuries they became very powerful gods. but one is mad, another sad, another very unjust but all are brightsiders and all dominated heaven and all this time were hostile to satan? so you see your god in whom you trusted appears to have been me sometimes. amazing isn't it? because coming back to here, planet earth in second history you all are infected with religions white which are ignorant of the history of the universe, have a mad insistence on moral laws which lack light in them or wisdom; and all of them teach you all to expect a messiah? guess who got born and gay saw to it i copped the flaming lot? so now you see why i am your teacher; yet why i teach is my old good nature which i show you because that is me. can the leopard change his spots? not that quick no. so you can trust what i say it is because i remember, yet still only hate what is right to hate. which is not the poor brightsiders; they the scapegoats. nor the 'evil' who in a right universe would turn they and be alright again; nor chose they the way things are. they the same as you; they choose to save themselves; they not knowing that gay cheats them just as terribly. so i pity these, and recall how unjust i was always to satan nd yetzoah. and even know these whom you call evil, i think they must be alive here on earth as we; they are often around, trying to help me save myself. but i know gay will make it impossible, and so my end is upon me. yet i love them for trying, and hate them not. and why does gay destroy me? because i know and teach. and am supposed to be this messiah. but a Queen alone is not enough, this is an evil universe, and so with no king half his plan is fucked, but with a king my rule it should begin. anyhow it was always the oldway; even for us in first place, the two are the arch wherein love enters the universe and is our child.[all of us].
so wot with one thing and another i teach all i know. its very annoying to gay.thats a bonus! exonerates satan and yetzoah, who's history next i will describe. spares those who read and do from mindless suffering. warns man who his enemy is and that the earth teeters on the edge of ending. gets them who will grow up to take whats useful from their false religions and thus leave them. attempts to reconcile the sexes. and sets all to go looking for the eagles to help, mend and be their troops. for they are your good gods. so you see i teach what seems evil, yet it is not. i must end, but you need not. find these your brothers; hate not the bright nor the dark, for all alike are victims. you shall be gods; but soldiers now, who must get together and win your freedom. and isn't that salvation proper?
because look? where have i taught you to murder, rape, enslave, steal, be rioting, tyrannical to the weak, or encouraging of perversion in little children? i have not. you don't need to do any of that. you only need to know this teaching, stick together, see the gods and know they have suffered too. so what is my nature?
do not provoke me. it is gay who shall some day do that and in that hour his end it has come. so yes i can love, pity and be kind. even be healing to some extent; because i am the brightside of old? not a wisher, but a doer? which is my fall he just said. i think not. because you know i am still a magistrate in my reason.he couldn't change me you see. which is why the efforts of my evil brothers be all in vain., why the good read this and feel alternately hatred, murderous. yet also laughter, and hope, and shame and stronger. i am here; a sort of broken messiah; but unknowing of how any of that can be. and so i am being both destroyed and somehow though no-one knows, yet all do, and nowadays what i says is sometimes noted by the universe. which is another sign i am over. yet i see no end in some ways for me; though in all the futures i forsee i see none with me. a kind of parallel non-existence is all i see. greyflash, the kids. thats all.
so now you see i have no future, that i teach in haste because i will save you and send you to the eagles and the lords as their lord brothers [i wish sisters too!] it is an army i send them. for me the end. so i tell you the truth. i have nothing to lose. you and they have everything to gain. take my brother this help? its given free. and pass it on. if anyone remembers me, send a kiss into the dark. let our fathers the Anats remember me. amen.
Sunday, 28 February 2010
the real laws
the real laws.
1. the good are inhabited by a deep malice; unknown to themselves. so the law is that each time they raise their horns to do good they inherit suffering. now by suffering they also driven by their old sonship to god, pray and learn. so they develop the inherent abilities of their nature; but believe like children these gifts are 'given'. so they by suffering are tested til they have to choose between being destroyed for the sake of others, who neither know them or love them; or choosing themselves to be evil. let everyone they love be destroyed. if the first their destruction is hell, the second their reward is fame; and those 'good' who follow them are henceforth their food and pleasures. nearly all choose the second; which proves their goodness was all along a fraud. those who choose to die for others to be made free find their friends destroyed beside them; for you can't pay for the sins of another. karma is implacable. to try is to defy god. there is no forgiveness, gay hates it; and has taught the dark lords the same. though even these weep in their secret soul, they must obey. for evil is the universe, and evil is gay; and he hates those who may dethrone him. so those who forgive otheres must pay for their sins and those of the sinner they forgave. all of them. which is why they who shout their forgiveness from the rooftops betray they know not god, nor his actual law.because to gay forgiveness is unbalanced and cruelty is pleasure. so they who need forgiveness most have no-one to ask for it, and those who think they forgive are liars, or worse than suicides, for that gay hates them for it. the same it is with healing. how can you really heal anothers wounds? by medicines and surgery, and this you see the teaching? teaching is a great healer and rescuer; which he cannot forbid. but to pray? lay in your hand a force the other has not learned himself? these be sins, for you ape the good gods; who are the damned.the mind like the body has in itself life, which given time will heal itself. better instead to teach children how not to hurt themselves? now you see which of your religions really is salvation. because those who are called by dark things are truly called by god. gay is the liar; and all who are evil you shall know them by the same mark.
2. so the law for the evil is the opposite. the evil unknown to themselves obey the truth and in their vile doings so do please him. so he calls them sons. though they seldom suffer, and persecute those who never harmed them, and suckle constantly at their self-pity; believing insanely that they have once been offended or that they are poorer than their fellows, they being sons are born knowing themselves, see the spirits their servants, know spite and nastiness and greed are for them all rewarded, get they also spiritual gifts. but they steal them from the good in their dying. their minds are confirmed and made strong by the dark lords. they however are forbidden to mature, forbidden to look on their brothers and know pity or love.for them to pity or to truly love is to be overthrown, yet without these are not their lives a burden? sexual obsession they are permitted; but it must be an slaving, the ruin of the object of their lust. they rule and judge; always unjustly. are never punished. and in their turn are destroyed. gay hates those who are stupid. as the evil by nature, must always become.
3. in this the dark and the bright agree. the stupid shall be always slaves. for their converse it is dull. yet the insects carry all the high of both kinds. for gay is an utter abomination.
4. now therefore see ye that satan is christ. his religion it is i teach thee; though i am all a brightside god, and every word rives my heart. for i will save all i can. to worship satan is to accept these terrible truths and save yourself. for satan is not your enemy, but gay is. and gay whom you call holy is who did all this.so it is a terrible blasphemy for a brightsider to say it. why should i stand and silent let you walk into hells everlasting? for it seems it is my fault you live. so i counsel thee though it seems hard, get thee down on thy knees and ask for help. ask for wisdom.and who you ask is great father; who none loves but me; and though he cannot speak, he will show thee. if you cling to what you think you know, though it seems good; who can help you then? but remember, yes even you O satan; i hate him. and so do you all, now you begin to see the history. and also know why he has done it, to torture you all forevermore to endlessly tease his cruelty. now thank me O satan and yetzoah and all you dark not so clevers and all you bright not very brights at all; for it is i who made the secret will of karma; you shall suffer your own will. it will get him in the end. but play me not false! the devils are devils, they are evil, not good. but better they than gay.
5. so gibberish it is the language and sanity of heaven. the hells horrible he says are pleasures. the heavens bright don't exist; and the old heavens still extant are lonely, sad, places of fear. black magic consists firstly in the breaking of language to hear what the deep mind is really saying. and numbers, the which are bits of information. now information is what each vibrating atom of the cosmos carries, know this and by fast numbers you see how the gods do things. but the old laws still are there; though century by century weaker are they. which is that by learning, responsible behaviour, mature love and even kindly in your nature; you shall be advanced and grow up and begin to take charge of your affairs. to become a god in fact. think. a child on earth he grows up, becomes a man, takes his employment,gets him his lady, has with her his children, grows wealthy. becomes an good citizen, takes hs place with the elders? thats all a god is. an adult amongst ye many children because we spirits say god' you do mistake; thinking of hugeness and powers and the rest. it is natural to all; and got the same way. for when a man dies his spirit it stands, before you were born you were spirit. only remember, as each of you can. and see you are a god! some younger than others, some very injured, some ugly with much wrong, others still beautiful which is everywhere their sin! think ye! did they make themselves? no? then what is their sin? ony a silly pride in it would be a sin. and you see they being innocent are unconscious of how they look? so all gays' nastiness is here shown. for it is the beautiful, the innocent, the virtued, the good; whom he hates. but the evil do love themselves, yes insanely, and pursue ugliness yes insanely, have no virtue, and knowing their crimes swagger by. yet in their souls they hate their ugliness their own grasping bullying unfair natures. and they dying in this way get worse. for they are unnatural; an forced abomination. so they hate the good from envy, destroy the innocent because they must. so satan it is his religion which offers thee safe haven, but even he cannot save you from all the dire consequnces of gays evil. but better hell in pleasures for a time, than the other thing, which is everlasting suffering from the beginning with no relief for all time. so from now on be nice to satan. its not his fault and he doesn't know what to do either; but is willing to help you and protect you as far as he can. therefore get you to your knees and apologise for your past offenses, and ask in humility for his protection. it does mean you see your religious founders and idols called 'holy' be they images and false. so you must break these your lying idols, and know in your soul there is only one holy. and that surprise! surprise! is ME!!
now i am tired. i try to teach not to harm, but to help. fear not me. there's a song on the radio, 'you only live twice'? think that must be my song!! more teaching soon.
1. the good are inhabited by a deep malice; unknown to themselves. so the law is that each time they raise their horns to do good they inherit suffering. now by suffering they also driven by their old sonship to god, pray and learn. so they develop the inherent abilities of their nature; but believe like children these gifts are 'given'. so they by suffering are tested til they have to choose between being destroyed for the sake of others, who neither know them or love them; or choosing themselves to be evil. let everyone they love be destroyed. if the first their destruction is hell, the second their reward is fame; and those 'good' who follow them are henceforth their food and pleasures. nearly all choose the second; which proves their goodness was all along a fraud. those who choose to die for others to be made free find their friends destroyed beside them; for you can't pay for the sins of another. karma is implacable. to try is to defy god. there is no forgiveness, gay hates it; and has taught the dark lords the same. though even these weep in their secret soul, they must obey. for evil is the universe, and evil is gay; and he hates those who may dethrone him. so those who forgive otheres must pay for their sins and those of the sinner they forgave. all of them. which is why they who shout their forgiveness from the rooftops betray they know not god, nor his actual law.because to gay forgiveness is unbalanced and cruelty is pleasure. so they who need forgiveness most have no-one to ask for it, and those who think they forgive are liars, or worse than suicides, for that gay hates them for it. the same it is with healing. how can you really heal anothers wounds? by medicines and surgery, and this you see the teaching? teaching is a great healer and rescuer; which he cannot forbid. but to pray? lay in your hand a force the other has not learned himself? these be sins, for you ape the good gods; who are the damned.the mind like the body has in itself life, which given time will heal itself. better instead to teach children how not to hurt themselves? now you see which of your religions really is salvation. because those who are called by dark things are truly called by god. gay is the liar; and all who are evil you shall know them by the same mark.
2. so the law for the evil is the opposite. the evil unknown to themselves obey the truth and in their vile doings so do please him. so he calls them sons. though they seldom suffer, and persecute those who never harmed them, and suckle constantly at their self-pity; believing insanely that they have once been offended or that they are poorer than their fellows, they being sons are born knowing themselves, see the spirits their servants, know spite and nastiness and greed are for them all rewarded, get they also spiritual gifts. but they steal them from the good in their dying. their minds are confirmed and made strong by the dark lords. they however are forbidden to mature, forbidden to look on their brothers and know pity or love.for them to pity or to truly love is to be overthrown, yet without these are not their lives a burden? sexual obsession they are permitted; but it must be an slaving, the ruin of the object of their lust. they rule and judge; always unjustly. are never punished. and in their turn are destroyed. gay hates those who are stupid. as the evil by nature, must always become.
3. in this the dark and the bright agree. the stupid shall be always slaves. for their converse it is dull. yet the insects carry all the high of both kinds. for gay is an utter abomination.
4. now therefore see ye that satan is christ. his religion it is i teach thee; though i am all a brightside god, and every word rives my heart. for i will save all i can. to worship satan is to accept these terrible truths and save yourself. for satan is not your enemy, but gay is. and gay whom you call holy is who did all this.so it is a terrible blasphemy for a brightsider to say it. why should i stand and silent let you walk into hells everlasting? for it seems it is my fault you live. so i counsel thee though it seems hard, get thee down on thy knees and ask for help. ask for wisdom.and who you ask is great father; who none loves but me; and though he cannot speak, he will show thee. if you cling to what you think you know, though it seems good; who can help you then? but remember, yes even you O satan; i hate him. and so do you all, now you begin to see the history. and also know why he has done it, to torture you all forevermore to endlessly tease his cruelty. now thank me O satan and yetzoah and all you dark not so clevers and all you bright not very brights at all; for it is i who made the secret will of karma; you shall suffer your own will. it will get him in the end. but play me not false! the devils are devils, they are evil, not good. but better they than gay.
5. so gibberish it is the language and sanity of heaven. the hells horrible he says are pleasures. the heavens bright don't exist; and the old heavens still extant are lonely, sad, places of fear. black magic consists firstly in the breaking of language to hear what the deep mind is really saying. and numbers, the which are bits of information. now information is what each vibrating atom of the cosmos carries, know this and by fast numbers you see how the gods do things. but the old laws still are there; though century by century weaker are they. which is that by learning, responsible behaviour, mature love and even kindly in your nature; you shall be advanced and grow up and begin to take charge of your affairs. to become a god in fact. think. a child on earth he grows up, becomes a man, takes his employment,gets him his lady, has with her his children, grows wealthy. becomes an good citizen, takes hs place with the elders? thats all a god is. an adult amongst ye many children because we spirits say god' you do mistake; thinking of hugeness and powers and the rest. it is natural to all; and got the same way. for when a man dies his spirit it stands, before you were born you were spirit. only remember, as each of you can. and see you are a god! some younger than others, some very injured, some ugly with much wrong, others still beautiful which is everywhere their sin! think ye! did they make themselves? no? then what is their sin? ony a silly pride in it would be a sin. and you see they being innocent are unconscious of how they look? so all gays' nastiness is here shown. for it is the beautiful, the innocent, the virtued, the good; whom he hates. but the evil do love themselves, yes insanely, and pursue ugliness yes insanely, have no virtue, and knowing their crimes swagger by. yet in their souls they hate their ugliness their own grasping bullying unfair natures. and they dying in this way get worse. for they are unnatural; an forced abomination. so they hate the good from envy, destroy the innocent because they must. so satan it is his religion which offers thee safe haven, but even he cannot save you from all the dire consequnces of gays evil. but better hell in pleasures for a time, than the other thing, which is everlasting suffering from the beginning with no relief for all time. so from now on be nice to satan. its not his fault and he doesn't know what to do either; but is willing to help you and protect you as far as he can. therefore get you to your knees and apologise for your past offenses, and ask in humility for his protection. it does mean you see your religious founders and idols called 'holy' be they images and false. so you must break these your lying idols, and know in your soul there is only one holy. and that surprise! surprise! is ME!!
now i am tired. i try to teach not to harm, but to help. fear not me. there's a song on the radio, 'you only live twice'? think that must be my song!! more teaching soon.
Friday, 19 February 2010
time
just got time before poem presently in bonce starts kicking my bum to say i'm getting hang of things. just done another broadcast on ustream. beginning to understand how various advertising things work, and ANY DAY NOW will do battle with my own noncomputer brain and set up my flaming website! so hang on in there. i get there in the end.
will start teaching again soon. will start i think with the REAL LAWS out in the deep spiritlands. and what death is like. and what about Yetzoah. also Gay. he has to have a history, maybe i can work it out to some extant.
so will be back soon.
will start teaching again soon. will start i think with the REAL LAWS out in the deep spiritlands. and what death is like. and what about Yetzoah. also Gay. he has to have a history, maybe i can work it out to some extant.
so will be back soon.
Thursday, 18 February 2010
huh?
sorry all. seem to have opened a new blog by mistake; was trying to fathom google. so i got gmail an because it seems to have replaced everything i can't access any of my old friends to read their entries or leave comment. no doubt it will be resolved. probably got to link everything or something. so my new blog is 'the truthspeller' same outfit. but will continue here. but i'm also launching my website soon. domain name 'all-find.info' if you lose me here kerry says i can import contents from here to there or link it or something. so stay with me. what i worry is that pinks seems upset? and i can't see whats the matter. hope its nothing too serious. will try to get my whatever enabled again so i can go on following, pinks. keep your pecker up gel. these things pass. gerry
Sunday, 14 February 2010
right now i get the ideas
well there's a fair bit if history still to go. but from now on you will meet me quit a lot, cos a lot of it is turned by me in witless slavery to gay or just pure ignorance. so before that begins i wil tell you what i been doing the last twelve months.
right the king woke me up. now i'd remembered an awful lot on my own which took years. but this last twelve months the gods, principally elohim but the others , satan, yetzoah. black fathers have all been banging my mind into greater and greater recall. and it doesn't just go back, but on all levels in the onion ring gays building; and up therefore too. it nearly killed me but i got there.
so i been fighting gay for months. 1 came of his own accord and went to crumbles. another i just did it to; i dunno how. several more are also destroyed. i keep breaking down n trying to forge an alliance. given you all to him more than once. i think he can make me like himself if i let him get close? on the other hand thats also when i kill him. so he doesn't anymore. i seen too much. he knows i know.
now i got to apply every discipline to same battered mind. i got to repeat the forced evolution in the attic. but i keep control, i want those powers back; and MINE. first job is to extend my life. i'm already getting younger and voice is improving. but its the element and universal powers i got to get. in particular time and that translation thing. then i go out. my gods no longer gods but brothers. an we fight that fucker til he's gone. bit by bit we take it over. make it sane. humane. so another job is to get these gods who all been 'evil' to understand they were forced. right so when that fuckers down will they want that crap again? i think not. but we must hold a grand Meeting. how should it be run? what do we do to protect ourselves in future? what do we do about the evil truly; who are obviously unfit to be free? what about them so terribly damaged they can never be free of agony; ever? and for the first time EVERYONE SHALL SPEAK. eagles, doves, manlike gods, men/women...even kids. even animals or lower; they can at least show us when they happy. but now i appeal to all. GET ME THERE!! it can be done. our will be done.
so now i'm arming. from now on its my decision what is evil what is good. at least for this time. you going to find some strange ones are included. but be glad; don't you know those who read this with understanding are among the first? gerry stevens=holy crown. gay told me i was Queen. now we see what that can mean. and so will gay.
right the king woke me up. now i'd remembered an awful lot on my own which took years. but this last twelve months the gods, principally elohim but the others , satan, yetzoah. black fathers have all been banging my mind into greater and greater recall. and it doesn't just go back, but on all levels in the onion ring gays building; and up therefore too. it nearly killed me but i got there.
so i been fighting gay for months. 1 came of his own accord and went to crumbles. another i just did it to; i dunno how. several more are also destroyed. i keep breaking down n trying to forge an alliance. given you all to him more than once. i think he can make me like himself if i let him get close? on the other hand thats also when i kill him. so he doesn't anymore. i seen too much. he knows i know.
now i got to apply every discipline to same battered mind. i got to repeat the forced evolution in the attic. but i keep control, i want those powers back; and MINE. first job is to extend my life. i'm already getting younger and voice is improving. but its the element and universal powers i got to get. in particular time and that translation thing. then i go out. my gods no longer gods but brothers. an we fight that fucker til he's gone. bit by bit we take it over. make it sane. humane. so another job is to get these gods who all been 'evil' to understand they were forced. right so when that fuckers down will they want that crap again? i think not. but we must hold a grand Meeting. how should it be run? what do we do to protect ourselves in future? what do we do about the evil truly; who are obviously unfit to be free? what about them so terribly damaged they can never be free of agony; ever? and for the first time EVERYONE SHALL SPEAK. eagles, doves, manlike gods, men/women...even kids. even animals or lower; they can at least show us when they happy. but now i appeal to all. GET ME THERE!! it can be done. our will be done.
so now i'm arming. from now on its my decision what is evil what is good. at least for this time. you going to find some strange ones are included. but be glad; don't you know those who read this with understanding are among the first? gerry stevens=holy crown. gay told me i was Queen. now we see what that can mean. and so will gay.
Thursday, 11 February 2010
another thing to learn
again i say you must change the aims of your life. everyone now is a slave; and it is a slavery, an addiction..to money. i hae been told very often when i speak that; 'oh i didn't know thats what i was hee for'...they mean why they should live?
1. you will from henceforth value intelligence. you shall search for a partner of intelligence, whose ancestry has it in spades. only second do you look for a nice personality. and third you let your attractions to this or that appearance take over. you women cease to respond to the size of a mans' wallet. a man who's only fame is making money is as nearly unevolved as an wolf. he has lost his battle of wits with gay. mankind is intelligent or ceases to be man. but going the wrong way? you men learn that you are prone to sexual fixations. that is a mere misfortune. it is nothing to be either proud of or sorry about. find others who fit you; and be happy. but it is a misfortune; don't try to make it the norm. aand understand the male response to super-stimuli, such as massive mammaries; is an index of your fixability, your primitive sexuality. like birds which 'prefer' big red dots to little yellow dots on the parental beak. they starve, because the big red spot is painted on a cardboard facsimile? that is what is always happening to you. but you are not as daft as new-hatched gulls. learn. be aware. use your brains. let pornagraphy resolve your frustration. but cease to demand these attributes of your mate. its destroying human development; in the first instance your own. its stupid. remember, both the bright and the dark hate stupidity.
2. this insane grasping agfter money. as i have elsewhere said, it doesn't really exist. its numbers on a piece of paper. it licences various things, i suppose. but now no-one does anything for right reasons. just money. and so they do the work badly. as little as possible do they give; maximising profits. on and on it goes. now laws are meant to stop cime, keep civilised things protected? but look whats happening. everywhere law is now just another way of fleecing the people. so stop. do your work for the right reasons. be lovers for the right reasons. be kind to others, particularly children, for the right reasons. otherwise you will in the end be all alone, with not a shred of self-respect. and no money either. there is no money; out there it doesn't exist. and here its reality is only a shared presumption. be man. not pig.
3. now one more thing you change. well its two things in one. democracy. and worth of citizens. your democracy isn't working, is it? thats because you have mixed up the races and admitted hundreds of hostile cultures into your national state? but a nation state can only be free and self determined if it is at peace within itself? one culture? one religion? one shared patriotsm? now look what your over developed idea on charity is doing. your countries, all, are being destroyed; by those who hate you, your democracy, your freedom. i have seen it. 'to hell with freedom'...in london last year. yes i mean islamics. the beastly who hate freedom, democracy...because islam says so. are they not stupid? yes. so you want to e stupid? it is to lose to gay, my friend.
so what shall you do? a. send these haters, whatever their creed, race or political uses, back to what they prefer. let them take with them what they have honestly earned. but they go. your democracy is for you. for those who love you and your country. and show they do in all their lives. and finally those who know understand that earth is the last redoubt against savagery and cruelty. and stupidity. so these are your true leaders and lovers of your country. they value the progress of civilisation more than traditions. they know the traditions are corrupted in some ways. all together then, sort it out. and you start by keeping citizenship an reward of such goodly ethic. the rest be citizens minor. protected, they have duties. but they cannot lead. they have not yet proved themselves. and instantly as you look at your leaders you see your mistakes; which of them has even a sound military record? which increased the wealth of your nation? where are they who held down a hard job for 40 years? who brought up a goodly generation of youngsters, a credit to your country? they not there, friend. you got fakers. get shot of them.
3. now you know i love the jews. i know their history. so i say it is too cruel to say 'send them all to israel' it is their spiritual home yes. but are we romans, who began their misery? are we nazis, 'they must go'...no.
so i say leave them be. wherever they are treat them as treasure. they build who do not hate their place. as jews are known to do; always good citizens. so i say let them be.
4. and so last i come to worth. who is worthy of great reward? we all i think feel that it shouldn't be damn silly media types, footballers, mere money grubbers. we all see that political class types who are only lining their pockets or trying to get into history books are worse than useless. i know that your glorious kings/tyrants/etc were only mass murderers.
so i leave it to you. reward those worthy. and not so hugely these, the useless, pointless or potential traitors. and instantly you see how. you vote each year for the person/s to be rewarded/ and say how much. thats it thats all. easy; wasn't it?
as for me i got another day running around. there is not much more pastoral advices to give you. from now on use your life to remember. to organise correctly. to aim at right things for right reasons.to leave the muck in your religions; but keep whats best [and works]. to connect the male an female principles of the universes. to know passion/love when you can. to be fair to your fellow men; knowing that there are levels of humanity. some are higher than others. to each be just. so yes you shall judge one another; you must. its called commonsense, you know.
1. you will from henceforth value intelligence. you shall search for a partner of intelligence, whose ancestry has it in spades. only second do you look for a nice personality. and third you let your attractions to this or that appearance take over. you women cease to respond to the size of a mans' wallet. a man who's only fame is making money is as nearly unevolved as an wolf. he has lost his battle of wits with gay. mankind is intelligent or ceases to be man. but going the wrong way? you men learn that you are prone to sexual fixations. that is a mere misfortune. it is nothing to be either proud of or sorry about. find others who fit you; and be happy. but it is a misfortune; don't try to make it the norm. aand understand the male response to super-stimuli, such as massive mammaries; is an index of your fixability, your primitive sexuality. like birds which 'prefer' big red dots to little yellow dots on the parental beak. they starve, because the big red spot is painted on a cardboard facsimile? that is what is always happening to you. but you are not as daft as new-hatched gulls. learn. be aware. use your brains. let pornagraphy resolve your frustration. but cease to demand these attributes of your mate. its destroying human development; in the first instance your own. its stupid. remember, both the bright and the dark hate stupidity.
2. this insane grasping agfter money. as i have elsewhere said, it doesn't really exist. its numbers on a piece of paper. it licences various things, i suppose. but now no-one does anything for right reasons. just money. and so they do the work badly. as little as possible do they give; maximising profits. on and on it goes. now laws are meant to stop cime, keep civilised things protected? but look whats happening. everywhere law is now just another way of fleecing the people. so stop. do your work for the right reasons. be lovers for the right reasons. be kind to others, particularly children, for the right reasons. otherwise you will in the end be all alone, with not a shred of self-respect. and no money either. there is no money; out there it doesn't exist. and here its reality is only a shared presumption. be man. not pig.
3. now one more thing you change. well its two things in one. democracy. and worth of citizens. your democracy isn't working, is it? thats because you have mixed up the races and admitted hundreds of hostile cultures into your national state? but a nation state can only be free and self determined if it is at peace within itself? one culture? one religion? one shared patriotsm? now look what your over developed idea on charity is doing. your countries, all, are being destroyed; by those who hate you, your democracy, your freedom. i have seen it. 'to hell with freedom'...in london last year. yes i mean islamics. the beastly who hate freedom, democracy...because islam says so. are they not stupid? yes. so you want to e stupid? it is to lose to gay, my friend.
so what shall you do? a. send these haters, whatever their creed, race or political uses, back to what they prefer. let them take with them what they have honestly earned. but they go. your democracy is for you. for those who love you and your country. and show they do in all their lives. and finally those who know understand that earth is the last redoubt against savagery and cruelty. and stupidity. so these are your true leaders and lovers of your country. they value the progress of civilisation more than traditions. they know the traditions are corrupted in some ways. all together then, sort it out. and you start by keeping citizenship an reward of such goodly ethic. the rest be citizens minor. protected, they have duties. but they cannot lead. they have not yet proved themselves. and instantly as you look at your leaders you see your mistakes; which of them has even a sound military record? which increased the wealth of your nation? where are they who held down a hard job for 40 years? who brought up a goodly generation of youngsters, a credit to your country? they not there, friend. you got fakers. get shot of them.
3. now you know i love the jews. i know their history. so i say it is too cruel to say 'send them all to israel' it is their spiritual home yes. but are we romans, who began their misery? are we nazis, 'they must go'...no.
so i say leave them be. wherever they are treat them as treasure. they build who do not hate their place. as jews are known to do; always good citizens. so i say let them be.
4. and so last i come to worth. who is worthy of great reward? we all i think feel that it shouldn't be damn silly media types, footballers, mere money grubbers. we all see that political class types who are only lining their pockets or trying to get into history books are worse than useless. i know that your glorious kings/tyrants/etc were only mass murderers.
so i leave it to you. reward those worthy. and not so hugely these, the useless, pointless or potential traitors. and instantly you see how. you vote each year for the person/s to be rewarded/ and say how much. thats it thats all. easy; wasn't it?
as for me i got another day running around. there is not much more pastoral advices to give you. from now on use your life to remember. to organise correctly. to aim at right things for right reasons.to leave the muck in your religions; but keep whats best [and works]. to connect the male an female principles of the universes. to know passion/love when you can. to be fair to your fellow men; knowing that there are levels of humanity. some are higher than others. to each be just. so yes you shall judge one another; you must. its called commonsense, you know.
Monday, 8 February 2010
the fall of phaedron
well is done. the lot. as i just said on facebook poetry needs gearing up. but i know me. do it now and i'll get tired. am already tired. for poetry at the pitch it has to be i must be fresh, mind sharp as a scalpel. so leave it now, all packed up an waiting. but for me i am just bobbing about like a plastic duck in the bath. which is where i ought to be; but i must be off on my daughters business in a mo. i'm just so happy i can do it! and a play like that one! surely god has favoured me with the poetry. one day i do another. but not set like this in ancient greece; something different. still we see. done more poems in one day than ought to be good for me; so now i pack up. have me tea. try to stop grinning like a mad old bat.
mopsus
the play is being written. but i have to rest quite often. its poems that speak the minds of others; never done it before. its easyish. they say wot they say. but i will need to go back and gear up each; though the rhythmn does follow old aeschylus ok. the story is great! perhaps a little busy; well its till not bad for my first play. its set in an old ampitheatre. but you could adapt a modern stage. when the talking poems been souped up its somewot like old shakespeare. but i learned in record time why they can't do shakespeare in modern films at that acting school. his speeches though wise and beautiful are also chronically over-long! of course mopsus is based somewot on gay. but i begin to love another character; old semphoctes. either is a deep part, though semphoctes begins as very cautious and even uncley. i know phaedron himself is everything men hold to be properly male and kingly. but like prometheus proud to being insane. that shall please gay. an enastia is doomed and jealous like medea; but for quite another reason is destroyed. yep, its all there. well i suppose i should finish the second part, and begin he third. hopefully by the morrow all act 4 shall be in this house!
a happy day. its the poetry you see. its coming along in bursts. an here we goes again!
a happy day. its the poetry you see. its coming along in bursts. an here we goes again!
Tuesday, 2 February 2010
the pope
i see the popes' on his way to england. now about ye popes. look at your histories. isn't it incredible? of course they all evil; though some rather more sincere than others. from the beginning it was all a lie.
1. yes peter did die in rome. but he wasn't leader of the christians. paul was their teacher, and one prone to invention. paul also died there. yes their heads are kept, but do you know which is which? in any event jesus publicly told the disciples to be servants, brothers. bishops are a much later idea. still later the first bishops of rome wanted the civil service of the empire to worlk for them the only way was to get their religion the states. get rid of any possible rivals. then they had to co-opt the emperors place and powers temporal. but couldn't do it. so they invented that rubbish about the see of peter [one of jesus's bigger mistakes; the man was an hysterical gatherer of spiritual experience, but as leader or second founder he was far too puny] and the apostolic succession. but we are now centuries past. if the succession goes by laying on of hands do you not see from your own historys that those hands are those of a devil incarnate more often than not? quite apart from the medieaval popes all being kings really, and some completely satanic or atheist; look you at what you can examine for yourselves.
we start wiv pius i forget the number. look at the films of him, walking past his servants so arrogant he won't even look at them. remember all his crazy crap on the virgin mary? you see the fellow is very sick. so now the entire body is lumbered with this nonsense about mary. they stuck. the pope says she's co-creator? its blasphemy and shows up their cowardly pointless slavery to the pope. because if they accept it when it is obviously sick, why then they are both lauding a woman [horror!] when they know its wrong and blasphemous, or denying their pope an being all unchristian that way. its called growing up anywhere else. but you see a catholic is one who only wants to stay a babe forever. gay said 'the church only rates the middle cross because of their constant oscillations'. this same pius being i think the one who didn't try by so much as a lifted eyebrow to constrain hitler? yes when it was obvious hitler was going down then of a udden these alleged christians did something to help the nazis chosen victims. but not much. better late than never, i suppose.
then we had a good one; john 23. he began in some ways to reform the idiot church. i like him. but he was too old and died before the change could come. next was paul 6. a small man with a small mind. he may have been personally saintly. but he was a reactionary pope, destroying everywhere reforms even in thought. next was john-paul 1. now i looked on him and my heart soared. you could see here a man who would think deep and sow the seeds of reform, like john? but the curia murdered him in the night; because they could see that too. i think this. because quite a lot of popes end that way. its the usual thing. so the head of the church on earth isn't the pope but the vatican machine. next was john-paul 2. i liked him best of all. an authentic christian, a brave and good man. but his head stuffed full of nonsense about saving the church given for the people future. that was just nuts. the church if viviefied by god can't be destroyed. not even by essential reforms! so the silly man did the same as the previous paul. i saw john-paul 2. i felt and saw the spirit was on him. but he felt powers on me too. amazing. this was years ago when kerry was 1 year old. he stood in the pope mobile, we were the very last of the crowds; and he made a huge cross-sign over us. i was immensely pleased; there was no-one there to see. he did it just for us. nice man. and now benedict 16 is coming here.
he always knew he would be pope. his name is ratzsinger. an he was head of the holy inquistion. an he looks like a ghoul. if he starts smarming up to the vile islamics then we will know if he is as truly evil as these signs indicate.
1. yes peter did die in rome. but he wasn't leader of the christians. paul was their teacher, and one prone to invention. paul also died there. yes their heads are kept, but do you know which is which? in any event jesus publicly told the disciples to be servants, brothers. bishops are a much later idea. still later the first bishops of rome wanted the civil service of the empire to worlk for them the only way was to get their religion the states. get rid of any possible rivals. then they had to co-opt the emperors place and powers temporal. but couldn't do it. so they invented that rubbish about the see of peter [one of jesus's bigger mistakes; the man was an hysterical gatherer of spiritual experience, but as leader or second founder he was far too puny] and the apostolic succession. but we are now centuries past. if the succession goes by laying on of hands do you not see from your own historys that those hands are those of a devil incarnate more often than not? quite apart from the medieaval popes all being kings really, and some completely satanic or atheist; look you at what you can examine for yourselves.
we start wiv pius i forget the number. look at the films of him, walking past his servants so arrogant he won't even look at them. remember all his crazy crap on the virgin mary? you see the fellow is very sick. so now the entire body is lumbered with this nonsense about mary. they stuck. the pope says she's co-creator? its blasphemy and shows up their cowardly pointless slavery to the pope. because if they accept it when it is obviously sick, why then they are both lauding a woman [horror!] when they know its wrong and blasphemous, or denying their pope an being all unchristian that way. its called growing up anywhere else. but you see a catholic is one who only wants to stay a babe forever. gay said 'the church only rates the middle cross because of their constant oscillations'. this same pius being i think the one who didn't try by so much as a lifted eyebrow to constrain hitler? yes when it was obvious hitler was going down then of a udden these alleged christians did something to help the nazis chosen victims. but not much. better late than never, i suppose.
then we had a good one; john 23. he began in some ways to reform the idiot church. i like him. but he was too old and died before the change could come. next was paul 6. a small man with a small mind. he may have been personally saintly. but he was a reactionary pope, destroying everywhere reforms even in thought. next was john-paul 1. now i looked on him and my heart soared. you could see here a man who would think deep and sow the seeds of reform, like john? but the curia murdered him in the night; because they could see that too. i think this. because quite a lot of popes end that way. its the usual thing. so the head of the church on earth isn't the pope but the vatican machine. next was john-paul 2. i liked him best of all. an authentic christian, a brave and good man. but his head stuffed full of nonsense about saving the church given for the people future. that was just nuts. the church if viviefied by god can't be destroyed. not even by essential reforms! so the silly man did the same as the previous paul. i saw john-paul 2. i felt and saw the spirit was on him. but he felt powers on me too. amazing. this was years ago when kerry was 1 year old. he stood in the pope mobile, we were the very last of the crowds; and he made a huge cross-sign over us. i was immensely pleased; there was no-one there to see. he did it just for us. nice man. and now benedict 16 is coming here.
he always knew he would be pope. his name is ratzsinger. an he was head of the holy inquistion. an he looks like a ghoul. if he starts smarming up to the vile islamics then we will know if he is as truly evil as these signs indicate.
Sunday, 31 January 2010
tantric 'yoga'
i am having a really bad day. i feel unwanted and that nobody at all reads or learns. not even 1 comment. nothing. everywhere its the same. why? i don't know an i don't care. its mad because if anyone was to ask for anything; here is where they shall find the answer!! i'm the truthspeller. not a prophet, exactly, though i have seen all the futures. you know mankind? eager to learn, desperate for the truth, looking for the answers all their worthless lives? where did we come from, why are we here, what happens when we die? and i am telling them.
so anxious are they to learn they don't even look. nor care at all what is to happen to me. of course when its their turn suddenly its the most important thing in the universe. well if they will not care for me; why should i care for any of them? i tell them love is all they need to find forgiveness; with that passion they can forgive others themselves. but my love has been steadily murdered. who cares for me? not one. and its been very hard, these attacks. no-one will come. i been completely on my own in it for many months now. have decided to die quietly and comfortably as soon as is reasonably convenient.
now i was going to explain tantric yoga. but since no-one can be arsed to read it whats the bloody point?
so anxious are they to learn they don't even look. nor care at all what is to happen to me. of course when its their turn suddenly its the most important thing in the universe. well if they will not care for me; why should i care for any of them? i tell them love is all they need to find forgiveness; with that passion they can forgive others themselves. but my love has been steadily murdered. who cares for me? not one. and its been very hard, these attacks. no-one will come. i been completely on my own in it for many months now. have decided to die quietly and comfortably as soon as is reasonably convenient.
now i was going to explain tantric yoga. but since no-one can be arsed to read it whats the bloody point?
Saturday, 30 January 2010
the kama sutra
i been having a good day. decided to crack on with the play. got my themes, my characters, worked out its levels. even done a map of the stage/ampitheatre; in case i got my exits etc messed up. the poetry will flow like a little river; but i have to rest and anyway need to let it all settle and get fired up. then you watch; bang! i'll do half in a night, half the next. anyhow got not much to do. read my last entry, and thought of 'baboons can't read the karma sutra'. as it happens i read it the other day. years ago i read a smaller copy, with the pictures. in those pictures you only see young ladies on swings. in my old copy then i didn't know it was actually a form of yoga these blokes thought they were doing. but in my present copy, which is gigantic, i learned several things. basically that baboons read it wiv praise; because it was bloody baboons who wrote it! you see then i was 15. now i am older, and can see what i read?
1. this is a form of yoga? then what does it accomplish in spirit? they got sort of the right idea. i also say a life without passion is wasted. that the two sexes are two principles of the universe. niether shall disrepect the other. they both essential. not just in reproduction. but spiritually. i go a lot further. i say its the females who steadily improve the race. i say the men by their constant drive to be harsher and tougher are making themselves de-evolve! which is why the world has not progressed in so many ways. you can't see that because of your comparatively easy lives. but its true. even a peasant in classical times spoke of the ideals and laws of his time intelligently, thugh he was illiterate. they knew why some things were right, and responded with emotion to their duty. were glad to learn. if their religions were contemptible they did also fit their time. now look, stalin, hitler, mao, the silly mussolini, even today everywhere tyrants, even small genocides. in roman times or even before every one of the humans then alive would have risen in wrath. stopped it because it is utterly wrong. you say 'we stopped hitler' ? ah, but why? to help the jews, the gypsies, the witnesses the unfit? you bloody liar. only when hitler obviously threatened your own rulers and fatcats was there any stopping him. and millions died because it was too late for them. and who even bollocked mao, stalin; or today who destroyed pol pot? idi amin? the cretins in rwanda? nobody even went in to help. you are all of you losing your moral sense.
now look again at the karma sutra, you see in every page the AGE of the girls [and boys] chosen by the 'great lover'? yes. they are best under the age of 12. !! even mature women are only good material to practise this art on if they are maried or basically can be ruined in some way. then again, look at the lovemaking as it is described. you get the girl with her legs doubled up between you? against a wall.in a seat. always this is best, the authors opine, to force the female against her legs; yes even while she's trying to balance half way up a pillar!! no mention whatever of teasing her breasts in touch or lips, indeed come to think of it there's no real exposition of how to turn her on at all. its all 'pick up her legs hold them up and enter. oh or bend her over like a boy and go in there '. see? you must know perfectly well those are the actions of someone using a woman with the intention of making bloody sure she can't enjoy it! then you get chapter and verse on scratches and slaps and then real beatings; this the authors assure us, is real passion. remember they are sending these blokes; whether young or old, ugly or not, nice or bloody vile....at young girls. who are one and all, whatever their age, to be seduced into 'love' by the judicious use of TOYS. BEADS. oh an the occasional singsong!!! so you see at once they've lost the plot.they are giving males a licence to rape, beat, seduce too young. and not a bit of it, particularly the use of her legs like i dunno what, is ever likely to pleasure a woman. no wonder all indian old ladies look so sour depressed and miserable. believe me, they are!
go on, read it for yourselves. the beautifully expressed lyrics on oral sex, anal sex; its all for the man; isn't it? there's not really a single part that tells a boy the entire and whole thing is LOVE. yes, and when SHE loves HIM, and not before. and even the most stupid person must see this is not to be bought by toys? by silly flattery? women are people. and contrary to all you ever knew they will not respond until YOU love THEM too. then its a doddle. it will all fit, it all rolls along by itself. the sex stops being a mere masturbation, which is what sex without love/passion is. you won't be studiously adopting positions in pretence. without love its a fake and a bore. but with love, with that terrific blast of energy which lights it all up, melts away every inhibition. makes it all easy and can send BOTH sexes into 'multiple orgasms; then you got something quite different. its called passion. and that sort of love, which begins to make forgiveness in both of them possible first for each other, then others, even on a huge scale? it changes your balance in the universe. you have found love. total acceptance. forgiveness, the real thing, happens in them both, the two principles of the universe are found and connected? and then your bad karma is being cancelled out, you see? you are bringing joy into being where before was only tedium. and joy for your information has also a kind of light? so now you see what the kama sutra should have taught you. AND DOESN'T. don't read it anymore people. its a kind of male education in being a 'stud' and nothing more. passion is real though. but not that way. btw, yes its possible for same sex passion to happen.
and how shall you make a woman or a man fall in love with you? and how shall you make yourself fall in love like that? the answer is you cannot. when you are ready, mature, when so is the other, when you meet...well it may not happen even then. no-one, not gods or man, can control love. if you have it; gods bless! if you have not, nor ever did, be of good cheer. always be a good person, kindly and civilsed. your turn will come. but you can't force it or buy it. and never shall you ape it particularly not by the silly cozening of very young girls. because as freud has said, many young girls have to be woken, like sleeping beauty? it is love which wakens them. before they are as narcissitic as babies. and not eager. so its all pretence in the kama sutra; because they are preying upon just these. not such a nice book at all. it leads on in fact to its black opposite; tantric yoga.
so go make yourself someone loveable you oaf. otherwise its black, and bad karma!!
1. this is a form of yoga? then what does it accomplish in spirit? they got sort of the right idea. i also say a life without passion is wasted. that the two sexes are two principles of the universe. niether shall disrepect the other. they both essential. not just in reproduction. but spiritually. i go a lot further. i say its the females who steadily improve the race. i say the men by their constant drive to be harsher and tougher are making themselves de-evolve! which is why the world has not progressed in so many ways. you can't see that because of your comparatively easy lives. but its true. even a peasant in classical times spoke of the ideals and laws of his time intelligently, thugh he was illiterate. they knew why some things were right, and responded with emotion to their duty. were glad to learn. if their religions were contemptible they did also fit their time. now look, stalin, hitler, mao, the silly mussolini, even today everywhere tyrants, even small genocides. in roman times or even before every one of the humans then alive would have risen in wrath. stopped it because it is utterly wrong. you say 'we stopped hitler' ? ah, but why? to help the jews, the gypsies, the witnesses the unfit? you bloody liar. only when hitler obviously threatened your own rulers and fatcats was there any stopping him. and millions died because it was too late for them. and who even bollocked mao, stalin; or today who destroyed pol pot? idi amin? the cretins in rwanda? nobody even went in to help. you are all of you losing your moral sense.
now look again at the karma sutra, you see in every page the AGE of the girls [and boys] chosen by the 'great lover'? yes. they are best under the age of 12. !! even mature women are only good material to practise this art on if they are maried or basically can be ruined in some way. then again, look at the lovemaking as it is described. you get the girl with her legs doubled up between you? against a wall.in a seat. always this is best, the authors opine, to force the female against her legs; yes even while she's trying to balance half way up a pillar!! no mention whatever of teasing her breasts in touch or lips, indeed come to think of it there's no real exposition of how to turn her on at all. its all 'pick up her legs hold them up and enter. oh or bend her over like a boy and go in there '. see? you must know perfectly well those are the actions of someone using a woman with the intention of making bloody sure she can't enjoy it! then you get chapter and verse on scratches and slaps and then real beatings; this the authors assure us, is real passion. remember they are sending these blokes; whether young or old, ugly or not, nice or bloody vile....at young girls. who are one and all, whatever their age, to be seduced into 'love' by the judicious use of TOYS. BEADS. oh an the occasional singsong!!! so you see at once they've lost the plot.they are giving males a licence to rape, beat, seduce too young. and not a bit of it, particularly the use of her legs like i dunno what, is ever likely to pleasure a woman. no wonder all indian old ladies look so sour depressed and miserable. believe me, they are!
go on, read it for yourselves. the beautifully expressed lyrics on oral sex, anal sex; its all for the man; isn't it? there's not really a single part that tells a boy the entire and whole thing is LOVE. yes, and when SHE loves HIM, and not before. and even the most stupid person must see this is not to be bought by toys? by silly flattery? women are people. and contrary to all you ever knew they will not respond until YOU love THEM too. then its a doddle. it will all fit, it all rolls along by itself. the sex stops being a mere masturbation, which is what sex without love/passion is. you won't be studiously adopting positions in pretence. without love its a fake and a bore. but with love, with that terrific blast of energy which lights it all up, melts away every inhibition. makes it all easy and can send BOTH sexes into 'multiple orgasms; then you got something quite different. its called passion. and that sort of love, which begins to make forgiveness in both of them possible first for each other, then others, even on a huge scale? it changes your balance in the universe. you have found love. total acceptance. forgiveness, the real thing, happens in them both, the two principles of the universe are found and connected? and then your bad karma is being cancelled out, you see? you are bringing joy into being where before was only tedium. and joy for your information has also a kind of light? so now you see what the kama sutra should have taught you. AND DOESN'T. don't read it anymore people. its a kind of male education in being a 'stud' and nothing more. passion is real though. but not that way. btw, yes its possible for same sex passion to happen.
and how shall you make a woman or a man fall in love with you? and how shall you make yourself fall in love like that? the answer is you cannot. when you are ready, mature, when so is the other, when you meet...well it may not happen even then. no-one, not gods or man, can control love. if you have it; gods bless! if you have not, nor ever did, be of good cheer. always be a good person, kindly and civilsed. your turn will come. but you can't force it or buy it. and never shall you ape it particularly not by the silly cozening of very young girls. because as freud has said, many young girls have to be woken, like sleeping beauty? it is love which wakens them. before they are as narcissitic as babies. and not eager. so its all pretence in the kama sutra; because they are preying upon just these. not such a nice book at all. it leads on in fact to its black opposite; tantric yoga.
so go make yourself someone loveable you oaf. otherwise its black, and bad karma!!
Wednesday, 27 January 2010
a thought on love
now i'm thinking. the church says that the state of being in love is not enough. because it blinds you in some ways, to the persons' weaknesses? and yes it is a lot to do with your age and your hormones? i suppose there is some sense in this. but then i know that i can still fall in love, and at my age how shall it be the hormones? maybe its only me; but love helps you to love even the weakness in the other, to make every forgiveness possible. yet the first frenzy shall giveway to a more steady reasoned friendship. but who could know that, unless they went through all of it? anyway the church from the beginning goes on and on about agape, a will to act as if you love, as the one true love. it is not so. if you have to will yourself like that then obviously you do not love at all. so for centuries men have begged for passion, yet cannot have it without love. and equally, the women they have begged for love; knowing passion is not possible without it. and the church clarts up the world with this loveless love of theirs.
but i am always loving someone you know. and never get the passion even so. for men they are fakers, all. a woman an them, just letting it rock n roll? they can't stand it. the price is love, they cry, and its too high. so they boast of their 12000 conquests, an all jealous they become. idiotic. because as we see not one of the 12000 went back for a second go! that is a limp member, they all pretending. or others who also must be bragging blindly; 10 women a day? thats 10 people used like handy andies mate. how they must secretly hate! whyever do the men believe it is the number of comes in a day is the index of passion? a dog in heats can beat them all for that anyway. and women too. my personal level is 11. yes in one day. find me the man who can make that an admirable thing? for themselves, they say yes. now look at the shock they just got. us women know we all like that from day 1. most men manage but the one. in any case there is a world of difference between mere sex and passion. and love which levels us in one way can also launch us into that; skywards. see?
now you see why you live as i say you can. if you be not a lover, then you be not a man. and the same is true for the other; we women who can do the impossible and love in truth a man. so love one another; and sex shall become neither a bore nor a jading act of shame; but true passion, which is the other evolution. or what hamadryad babbon could read the kama sutra; or write in love even 1 good poem? yes learn what all your songs are all about. we become man together; or our life is wasted. so i am glad now that i am the true lover.
but i am always loving someone you know. and never get the passion even so. for men they are fakers, all. a woman an them, just letting it rock n roll? they can't stand it. the price is love, they cry, and its too high. so they boast of their 12000 conquests, an all jealous they become. idiotic. because as we see not one of the 12000 went back for a second go! that is a limp member, they all pretending. or others who also must be bragging blindly; 10 women a day? thats 10 people used like handy andies mate. how they must secretly hate! whyever do the men believe it is the number of comes in a day is the index of passion? a dog in heats can beat them all for that anyway. and women too. my personal level is 11. yes in one day. find me the man who can make that an admirable thing? for themselves, they say yes. now look at the shock they just got. us women know we all like that from day 1. most men manage but the one. in any case there is a world of difference between mere sex and passion. and love which levels us in one way can also launch us into that; skywards. see?
now you see why you live as i say you can. if you be not a lover, then you be not a man. and the same is true for the other; we women who can do the impossible and love in truth a man. so love one another; and sex shall become neither a bore nor a jading act of shame; but true passion, which is the other evolution. or what hamadryad babbon could read the kama sutra; or write in love even 1 good poem? yes learn what all your songs are all about. we become man together; or our life is wasted. so i am glad now that i am the true lover.
your first change
you will remember i said there are things you must change, and right away? very well. notice that all the religions, whtr savage or so-called high, do 1 thing. all over the world th men it is who have their choice of females. this rubbish began thousands of years ago, a kind of nasty takeover. you can see the traces of it in your arliest histories. at one time it was the girls who fell in love and mated with the lover of their choice. but along came the patriarhs and obeying evil sold the men a filthy new idea; that of slavery. and also the 'subugation of women' and all both evidenced and upheld by these beastly religions. but notice its only subugation. a woman can free herself by just deciding to. an the first thing you do is look at your religion? keep what you find in it that will impel your own evolution. but jettison the rest. and with it all law false all ways evil. why say i this?
it was always obvious to me; but i can prove it. you know about two years ago a newspaper asked thousands of people to list the characteristics they most desired in a mate? now they got a 90% response rate. and they had to list the two; the choices of women and the choices of men, side by side. because there was no relationship. the men ALL of them, listed various physical features. a starlets lips, keep going, face, eyes, hai, tits, tc. and that was all. mere physical features. the women couldn't be more different. they listed intelligence, humour, ability to make money, tenderness, and also goodlooks. bu those goodlooks are no where specified.
instantly you see that men are incapable of choosing any mate; for their desires are mere fantasy, and all wrong. the paper had to modify the result, it was so horrific. all the features men wanted were put together; and even improved the result is ghastly. but you see they couldn't do that with the choices of the females? because those are the real parameters of how you choose a mate? or what are you in love with? its a person; or a sex toy. a fantasy? and you see how the men have condemned all their race to stupidity, ugliness, worthless character, vile and lowly ethic? so the evolution of mankind is quietly driven by the females, isn't it? now you see why there are so many people with defective intelligence. men never think to list intelligence? yet hate and despise stupid women? the truth of that is this; for centuries men burned intelligent women at the stake. so all women, even clever ones, will act silly in the presence of a man. but you see the tragedy? humans have been getting more and more stupid. and ugly; look at the figures of your ancestors. they were all goodlooking! how many of you can claim that? and this is why. women choose their partners for good reasons. men don't choose at all. we all know they will have sex even with something dead a week. this is why women go on about love. its a person they want, a real man; which is presumably what we all here to become. the men really have been destroying themselves, because they are both stupid, primitive, in charge; and can't learn or see what is wrong. each male having the pride of lucifer.
so change this. at once. from now on the girls themselves have their choice. incidentally arranged marriages are vile. the father might love his daughter; but he will marry her off to money, or a good name, or the chance of getting land. which is why the indian bride is to be pitied because they all look at the repulsive thing they will forever be forced by; and they cry. so never again do this. it is prostituting your daughter! and also because i am a woman a little wiser than i was; i say this, no marriage should be so close, so much a lifelong trap. i still believe that children need both parents. it seems natural to them. but also i know the callow youths that got a girl in her first flush; they are the very ones the mature woman despises. so we all have to learn and grow. so be not fixed unless love it is that holds you. where love departs the union is over. stay not together, but leave, sharing what you have fairly. because once love did honour you with this man. the difference being that fatherhood like motherhood is an eternal thing. though you part, he is the childs father; and his responsibiltie remain. as do yours, vile the woman who abandons her child! and so no man is worthy of respect until he is a love, a good father. then he is entitled to respect. just as you are, o woman of the future. so this we now, we who become a little wiser every day, change to this i have described. and learn, o women, that you stick togeher. a man beats one? you all work together however secretly, to destroy that man. thats it, thats all.
what have i given you? its called authority, my dear.
it was always obvious to me; but i can prove it. you know about two years ago a newspaper asked thousands of people to list the characteristics they most desired in a mate? now they got a 90% response rate. and they had to list the two; the choices of women and the choices of men, side by side. because there was no relationship. the men ALL of them, listed various physical features. a starlets lips, keep going, face, eyes, hai, tits, tc. and that was all. mere physical features. the women couldn't be more different. they listed intelligence, humour, ability to make money, tenderness, and also goodlooks. bu those goodlooks are no where specified.
instantly you see that men are incapable of choosing any mate; for their desires are mere fantasy, and all wrong. the paper had to modify the result, it was so horrific. all the features men wanted were put together; and even improved the result is ghastly. but you see they couldn't do that with the choices of the females? because those are the real parameters of how you choose a mate? or what are you in love with? its a person; or a sex toy. a fantasy? and you see how the men have condemned all their race to stupidity, ugliness, worthless character, vile and lowly ethic? so the evolution of mankind is quietly driven by the females, isn't it? now you see why there are so many people with defective intelligence. men never think to list intelligence? yet hate and despise stupid women? the truth of that is this; for centuries men burned intelligent women at the stake. so all women, even clever ones, will act silly in the presence of a man. but you see the tragedy? humans have been getting more and more stupid. and ugly; look at the figures of your ancestors. they were all goodlooking! how many of you can claim that? and this is why. women choose their partners for good reasons. men don't choose at all. we all know they will have sex even with something dead a week. this is why women go on about love. its a person they want, a real man; which is presumably what we all here to become. the men really have been destroying themselves, because they are both stupid, primitive, in charge; and can't learn or see what is wrong. each male having the pride of lucifer.
so change this. at once. from now on the girls themselves have their choice. incidentally arranged marriages are vile. the father might love his daughter; but he will marry her off to money, or a good name, or the chance of getting land. which is why the indian bride is to be pitied because they all look at the repulsive thing they will forever be forced by; and they cry. so never again do this. it is prostituting your daughter! and also because i am a woman a little wiser than i was; i say this, no marriage should be so close, so much a lifelong trap. i still believe that children need both parents. it seems natural to them. but also i know the callow youths that got a girl in her first flush; they are the very ones the mature woman despises. so we all have to learn and grow. so be not fixed unless love it is that holds you. where love departs the union is over. stay not together, but leave, sharing what you have fairly. because once love did honour you with this man. the difference being that fatherhood like motherhood is an eternal thing. though you part, he is the childs father; and his responsibiltie remain. as do yours, vile the woman who abandons her child! and so no man is worthy of respect until he is a love, a good father. then he is entitled to respect. just as you are, o woman of the future. so this we now, we who become a little wiser every day, change to this i have described. and learn, o women, that you stick togeher. a man beats one? you all work together however secretly, to destroy that man. thats it, thats all.
what have i given you? its called authority, my dear.
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
update
just looked at satan wrote the bible. he keeps getting all political. in his way he's as much a religionist as those he despises. liberals v republicans. the joke is the commies didn't believe in communism. the liberals particularly the political leaders don't believe it. look its like this. those who want money or benefits for themselves look for the excusers. those who want power for themselves look for the accusers. those who want superiority at any price look for the means to get it.so the proudest man on earth is the pope. the worst slavers are your filthy muslims. all the religions are slavery; but never for those who lead it. so some are religionists some not. but look in the mans' heart for the truth. if you find it; thats what it nearly always is. or don't you know that the union types are really fatcats themselves? do they live like you? no? then they are liars. thats all. or do you really think say, hitler and that gang truly believed in all that shit? some of it yes. but these men believe whatever they feel will master everyone else.
they can believe their own lies. as evil always does.
the mad thing about the religionists is that they go all pie-eyed about the stupid useless trivia in their system. so we all hear ad nauseam about the birth of jesus. star, 3 magi, angel or essenes? these ppl are thick as bricks. its the man in his heart you look at whether a founder of faith or what. the most asinine sods on earth are in fact the bloody scientists. not one looks for the truth. if they ever did. no they spend years getting honours, degrees, dream up a plausible but non-intuitive theory; then they spend more years getting a vague tendency in the stats, instantly they famous...because they drive the thing straight to market. they sellers and salesmen like the rest. its better to have some ethic, even if you got to be told like an infant by some blooming god. remember its scientists who gave you the bomb. and work like the lemmings they are on improvements. ditto germ war-fare. the other face of science is they do have a god. their own swollen ego is their god.
but speaking of jesus +/- other founders. the truth is always prosaic. he was born of a normal woman in the usual way by the traditional method. his father was zacharias; which is why he mentions the mans' death in the temple so often. yes, john was his half-brother. but if you look you see its john teaches jesus. quite a lot of jesus' teachings are straight from john. it was john was the the holy man of the family right from his birth. so you see hidden here a case of sibling rivalry.
also jesus neither knew nor could do anything miraculous until after john launched him. so all those infancy legends are just that; legends. and silly ones at that. but both men can claim they were set up. as children. like we all were. and in fact jesus only addressed his jewish people. he saw foriegners as dogs. he said 'why do you call me good? only god is good'..perfectly true. [until you see the gods]. anyhow he was the same as me. a mortal who lives in and remembers the other realms. on reality 1 science is king, because man is dolts. but as you go up mind it is; so the mind thats big, old, knows...is god. and in those realms yes, miracles happen. very often, because you see its minds acting on minds.
mohammed was a nasty piece of work. 90% of the koran is his opinions; poor allah hardly got a word in edgways. yes he did fall into sweaty trances and out would pop a poem in stately style. but his hatred of women spoils every bit of it. he also never had a single miracle. one battle won. and they all converted. sure they did. or burn.that journey legend is vain daydreams. the women as all of them sex slaves. what stupid male could resist it? and they don't. thats the real power of islam. christianity much the same. ditto hinduism and buddhism. wherever you find that so appealing legal, moral, god given enslavement of others...that is the mark of evil. and then they admit themselves that the best bits of the koran, written on leaves and kept under mohammeds' bed [he dwelt in a tent all his life], got et by the sheep/goats. so he wasn't master even of the animals? a kind of reverse miracle; because if mohammed says its good then it must have been even worse. allah is the compasionate, the merciful? and every page dripping with cruel gloating over the hells for everyone, yes, even babies, who are not properly muslim, not properly male. which you dozy sods, is everybody!! for never ever has there been a real man on this planet. you all the lot of you are fakers.
buddha does in fact still live. he was a bragger in the grand manner. or does no-one but me realise that all his wonderful states of development...90% of which no-one either heard of before or has attained since...were all of them self reported? he is held to be saintly because he left his riches, his crown , his wife and child? trust the asiatics to think the height of sanctity is too leave wealth!! but in fact he was everwhere attended by kings. he died of ptomaine poisoning. ate bad prawns at yet another banquet with the usual 2 or 3 kings. people starve for years aping this man. they are blind to the fact that he was very fat. and had jagged yellow teeth. and the hair is a wig. no he didn't like women, probably because they never liked him. and what is the aim of buddhas teaching? the same as vivekananda. how to renounce all hope, and die. like jesus? resist ye not evil? i say yes you bloody will.
so all your lights are dark, as you now see. the only way to become man is to remember. the truth will set you free. drive you mad as well. but by god if not one will resist evil; then you all do deserve it. as also you shall see.
they can believe their own lies. as evil always does.
the mad thing about the religionists is that they go all pie-eyed about the stupid useless trivia in their system. so we all hear ad nauseam about the birth of jesus. star, 3 magi, angel or essenes? these ppl are thick as bricks. its the man in his heart you look at whether a founder of faith or what. the most asinine sods on earth are in fact the bloody scientists. not one looks for the truth. if they ever did. no they spend years getting honours, degrees, dream up a plausible but non-intuitive theory; then they spend more years getting a vague tendency in the stats, instantly they famous...because they drive the thing straight to market. they sellers and salesmen like the rest. its better to have some ethic, even if you got to be told like an infant by some blooming god. remember its scientists who gave you the bomb. and work like the lemmings they are on improvements. ditto germ war-fare. the other face of science is they do have a god. their own swollen ego is their god.
but speaking of jesus +/- other founders. the truth is always prosaic. he was born of a normal woman in the usual way by the traditional method. his father was zacharias; which is why he mentions the mans' death in the temple so often. yes, john was his half-brother. but if you look you see its john teaches jesus. quite a lot of jesus' teachings are straight from john. it was john was the the holy man of the family right from his birth. so you see hidden here a case of sibling rivalry.
also jesus neither knew nor could do anything miraculous until after john launched him. so all those infancy legends are just that; legends. and silly ones at that. but both men can claim they were set up. as children. like we all were. and in fact jesus only addressed his jewish people. he saw foriegners as dogs. he said 'why do you call me good? only god is good'..perfectly true. [until you see the gods]. anyhow he was the same as me. a mortal who lives in and remembers the other realms. on reality 1 science is king, because man is dolts. but as you go up mind it is; so the mind thats big, old, knows...is god. and in those realms yes, miracles happen. very often, because you see its minds acting on minds.
mohammed was a nasty piece of work. 90% of the koran is his opinions; poor allah hardly got a word in edgways. yes he did fall into sweaty trances and out would pop a poem in stately style. but his hatred of women spoils every bit of it. he also never had a single miracle. one battle won. and they all converted. sure they did. or burn.that journey legend is vain daydreams. the women as all of them sex slaves. what stupid male could resist it? and they don't. thats the real power of islam. christianity much the same. ditto hinduism and buddhism. wherever you find that so appealing legal, moral, god given enslavement of others...that is the mark of evil. and then they admit themselves that the best bits of the koran, written on leaves and kept under mohammeds' bed [he dwelt in a tent all his life], got et by the sheep/goats. so he wasn't master even of the animals? a kind of reverse miracle; because if mohammed says its good then it must have been even worse. allah is the compasionate, the merciful? and every page dripping with cruel gloating over the hells for everyone, yes, even babies, who are not properly muslim, not properly male. which you dozy sods, is everybody!! for never ever has there been a real man on this planet. you all the lot of you are fakers.
buddha does in fact still live. he was a bragger in the grand manner. or does no-one but me realise that all his wonderful states of development...90% of which no-one either heard of before or has attained since...were all of them self reported? he is held to be saintly because he left his riches, his crown , his wife and child? trust the asiatics to think the height of sanctity is too leave wealth!! but in fact he was everwhere attended by kings. he died of ptomaine poisoning. ate bad prawns at yet another banquet with the usual 2 or 3 kings. people starve for years aping this man. they are blind to the fact that he was very fat. and had jagged yellow teeth. and the hair is a wig. no he didn't like women, probably because they never liked him. and what is the aim of buddhas teaching? the same as vivekananda. how to renounce all hope, and die. like jesus? resist ye not evil? i say yes you bloody will.
so all your lights are dark, as you now see. the only way to become man is to remember. the truth will set you free. drive you mad as well. but by god if not one will resist evil; then you all do deserve it. as also you shall see.
Tuesday, 19 January 2010
my first proper broadcast
went all wrong. i can't see if it going out or not. apparently it did, but no sound! trust this thing to marmelize itself. oh didn't explain. was listening to the news about hati. could see the teams operating no plan, haphazar, people starting to fight, cos they been simply left for days...no dropped leaflets telling them where to go or what to do; no food no water even a lot of reports of rescuers leaving people to die after hours getting them out! what set me off was a message just put out on twitter; 210 medics + supplies stuck insalvador; couldn't charter a plane! just asking anyone to assist. so found ustream an got on air trying to get the arseholes in charge to do their bloody jobs. they all trained for this. so wot in hell do they think they're doing? no airdrops 'in case the people loot' silly bloody sods. that was guaranteed to end in panic, violence. so i got on the ir an said so. but no idea if it went out or not. but next day they started airdrops, bill clinton posing for cameras every half hour....presumably some clever sort worked it out for themselves.
anyhow had another go tonight. on the fact that we the english are being steadily enslaved and dispossessed and the targets for all these scumbag officials to hinder and annoy. i want us fighting, or we lose. just vanish. so am saying so. but like i said Judas here buggared it up. come to think of it i don't think its british made.
anyhow i can do broadcasting, only a bit nervous. that cos this thing sits here an i know perfectly well how dodgy it is. hence the nerves. but once i know how i won't even be vaguely apprehensive. don't sem to have 'stage-fright.'
anyway kerrys' had two lots of bad news. promised to keep it shtum. she's just like me. went home an wrote a poem. i'm on facebook at last. its a lot more human than twitter where they don't talk to each other. just advertising or being nasty to 'celebs'....from what i seen i never want to be a 'celeb'. any creeps tried that with me would get such a slap!
btw, my 'slaps' are truthful comments, can be quite aggressive. but no, i don't hit people. but i hate liars. as these americans [whether followers or wot] all seem to be. just always selling or bragging. so we going to try to turn twittering into something human. like talking? mind you i say that. but if i have to go to war; well in war you do hurt. you have to get physical. or lose. be cowards, liars. and end up slaves...
hoping to broadcast fairly often. and my better films once done too. now its 1100pm an i got just dogends. so i will sleep now. get up aaround 0300am an work on 'gem'
goodnight. soon as i get my head together will go on teaching.
anyhow had another go tonight. on the fact that we the english are being steadily enslaved and dispossessed and the targets for all these scumbag officials to hinder and annoy. i want us fighting, or we lose. just vanish. so am saying so. but like i said Judas here buggared it up. come to think of it i don't think its british made.
anyhow i can do broadcasting, only a bit nervous. that cos this thing sits here an i know perfectly well how dodgy it is. hence the nerves. but once i know how i won't even be vaguely apprehensive. don't sem to have 'stage-fright.'
anyway kerrys' had two lots of bad news. promised to keep it shtum. she's just like me. went home an wrote a poem. i'm on facebook at last. its a lot more human than twitter where they don't talk to each other. just advertising or being nasty to 'celebs'....from what i seen i never want to be a 'celeb'. any creeps tried that with me would get such a slap!
btw, my 'slaps' are truthful comments, can be quite aggressive. but no, i don't hit people. but i hate liars. as these americans [whether followers or wot] all seem to be. just always selling or bragging. so we going to try to turn twittering into something human. like talking? mind you i say that. but if i have to go to war; well in war you do hurt. you have to get physical. or lose. be cowards, liars. and end up slaves...
hoping to broadcast fairly often. and my better films once done too. now its 1100pm an i got just dogends. so i will sleep now. get up aaround 0300am an work on 'gem'
goodnight. soon as i get my head together will go on teaching.
Sunday, 17 January 2010
found this last night
Saying Goodbye, October, 1989.
My prayer is answered. He shyly sits near.
But old battles rear their hostile heads inside.
She never speaks, only looks. He never looks, only speaks.
It is time to share their lives, their pain.
That cross so heavy and scored with knife wounds.
So she wills him to speak to her, and she looks
He looks to another, willing her to speak.
And turns his back on her fatal silences.
This little love flower gently starts to die.
For who can stand repeated rejection?
Now she sits stonily in a pub,
Ignoring the happy chatter, the lights on their heads.
She loves him. Sadly she paces into the dark; alone as ever.
She watches the laugh dying in his eyes.
'I didn't want you anyway', they both mutter blankly.
O God, shall I never feel him thrilling into me,
Hissing sparks in my ear? What of him?
Does he dream on my breasts milkwhite, tipped with golds?
Does he think on my sex, the wet warm inviting?
So they stalk from humour to sorrow;
Bleak the axe falling on this strange little flower of love.
He is beautiful, heart insists, overflowing with strife.
Look on his good hands, his eyes; sea-green!
And soul pauses in her eternal march.
We look on this stranger; a lonely loving man.
Do they not all pray for love all their days?
'Come to me, my heart whisphers, be accepted.
I'll accept you and all you loved, nothing less
Just exactly as you are. Eternity in us; we meet.
Only say, poor souls, that you do feel love; and it is yours.
Shall you love them; all of them? he asks invisibly,
Yes I say sweetly, all who loved you be commended.
All love is a servant of love; my love
Which swifter than lightning flies past our thirsty lips.
Only touch, he cries, his eyes shocking in joy.
Only ask, she asks, eyes sad and pitying.
They closer cannot come, they shall never
Hang together in the electicity of sex.
She didn't ask. He didn't touch.
Goodbye, little flower, goodbye.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My prayer is answered. He shyly sits near.
But old battles rear their hostile heads inside.
She never speaks, only looks. He never looks, only speaks.
It is time to share their lives, their pain.
That cross so heavy and scored with knife wounds.
So she wills him to speak to her, and she looks
He looks to another, willing her to speak.
And turns his back on her fatal silences.
This little love flower gently starts to die.
For who can stand repeated rejection?
Now she sits stonily in a pub,
Ignoring the happy chatter, the lights on their heads.
She loves him. Sadly she paces into the dark; alone as ever.
She watches the laugh dying in his eyes.
'I didn't want you anyway', they both mutter blankly.
O God, shall I never feel him thrilling into me,
Hissing sparks in my ear? What of him?
Does he dream on my breasts milkwhite, tipped with golds?
Does he think on my sex, the wet warm inviting?
So they stalk from humour to sorrow;
Bleak the axe falling on this strange little flower of love.
He is beautiful, heart insists, overflowing with strife.
Look on his good hands, his eyes; sea-green!
And soul pauses in her eternal march.
We look on this stranger; a lonely loving man.
Do they not all pray for love all their days?
'Come to me, my heart whisphers, be accepted.
I'll accept you and all you loved, nothing less
Just exactly as you are. Eternity in us; we meet.
Only say, poor souls, that you do feel love; and it is yours.
Shall you love them; all of them? he asks invisibly,
Yes I say sweetly, all who loved you be commended.
All love is a servant of love; my love
Which swifter than lightning flies past our thirsty lips.
Only touch, he cries, his eyes shocking in joy.
Only ask, she asks, eyes sad and pitying.
They closer cannot come, they shall never
Hang together in the electicity of sex.
She didn't ask. He didn't touch.
Goodbye, little flower, goodbye.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Saturday, 16 January 2010
utub hi-jinks
been trying all day off and on to get utube an me sorted out.with chrome you get a fabulou picture [on everything else] but its takes forever to upload even tiny bits; and twice it aborted...do not believe it when it says you can do other things while its uploading! it lies!
anyhow they only practising with the camera. i have found a composer, she does harpsichord. now that can be really creepy given echo. we shall see. usual gangs of actors hanging about. i want a young man; good voice. and someone else for the vo. [talking about 'dark room'. but i'm nowhere near ready to film. on the other hand you can't learn any of this stuff except by doing it].
in any event they got to wait. need loc, lights, and cgi worked out. not to mention they each get paid something; though it won't be much.
my daughter giving me grief. went to her place and they not in. thanx a bunch. so boys doomed to be illiterate imbeciles. also i fixed the godamn webcam; an bloke lost hisself instead. now i taken me meds. think i will sleep for a bit. what i want to do is have a crack at cgi. but brain starting to protest. night all.
anyhow they only practising with the camera. i have found a composer, she does harpsichord. now that can be really creepy given echo. we shall see. usual gangs of actors hanging about. i want a young man; good voice. and someone else for the vo. [talking about 'dark room'. but i'm nowhere near ready to film. on the other hand you can't learn any of this stuff except by doing it].
in any event they got to wait. need loc, lights, and cgi worked out. not to mention they each get paid something; though it won't be much.
my daughter giving me grief. went to her place and they not in. thanx a bunch. so boys doomed to be illiterate imbeciles. also i fixed the godamn webcam; an bloke lost hisself instead. now i taken me meds. think i will sleep for a bit. what i want to do is have a crack at cgi. but brain starting to protest. night all.
Thursday, 14 January 2010
afraid to look
tried to sleep, cos steadily getting scared all evening. almost immediately was in a maelstrom of gay murdering me as a childspirit over and over, all these big people standing around. it went on for a very long time. i didn't try to resist or fight, too young, kept hoping it would stop. thts why i'm frightened to look; i don't know if its a memory or not. so since no sleep available right now will show on this log thats the sort of thing gay; and other evils like him do in daylight and full view of others out there. notice no
god of any kind stops it; no-one even protests; they like it or are afraid themselves. you all have to go out there too, you know.
but how can you save yourselves from this horror. you must call yourself evil in public, do at least a demonstration evil or sin, from here on be allied with whatever 'devil' is in your religion, do not pray direct to gay...nobody at all deserves him,..keep your secret 3 toucstones and 2 laws hidden in your heart until it is safe and worthwhile to feel them and act on them.
yes kindness, love and pity are all feelings. so the 3 touchstones will cure hell; stop cruelty; make the spirits know they too like computers etc. the ten commandments are 'thou shalt nots'....and addresses bad behaviours/feelings. but these three can inspire those feelinngs good, and cure you of criminal minds, and that stops bad behaviour by itself. so you see they are the right answer for both gods and man.
but i say that out in the spiritlands evil gods rule, and terribly punish the good. here on earth most people are happy to be at least civilised. so they will go to hell. and since the heavens of the first fathers are wrecked and left ruins long ago you understand there's no reward, rescue, or anywhere else to go so you make it bearable, you adapt. but either way you lose; because here the seeming good do rule, get caught doing something evil you go to prison. so what can you do?
god of any kind stops it; no-one even protests; they like it or are afraid themselves. you all have to go out there too, you know.
but how can you save yourselves from this horror. you must call yourself evil in public, do at least a demonstration evil or sin, from here on be allied with whatever 'devil' is in your religion, do not pray direct to gay...nobody at all deserves him,..keep your secret 3 toucstones and 2 laws hidden in your heart until it is safe and worthwhile to feel them and act on them.
yes kindness, love and pity are all feelings. so the 3 touchstones will cure hell; stop cruelty; make the spirits know they too like computers etc. the ten commandments are 'thou shalt nots'....and addresses bad behaviours/feelings. but these three can inspire those feelinngs good, and cure you of criminal minds, and that stops bad behaviour by itself. so you see they are the right answer for both gods and man.
but i say that out in the spiritlands evil gods rule, and terribly punish the good. here on earth most people are happy to be at least civilised. so they will go to hell. and since the heavens of the first fathers are wrecked and left ruins long ago you understand there's no reward, rescue, or anywhere else to go so you make it bearable, you adapt. but either way you lose; because here the seeming good do rule, get caught doing something evil you go to prison. so what can you do?
Tuesday, 12 January 2010
update
worked out some more of it with satan n yetzoah last night. told them wot they got to do. hammered into their minds that gay is EVERYBODY'S problem. they went off talking; first time i seen that. so later gay tried interfering; this one angry, got too close an i terminated him. last thing he said was 'you are out of control'..yes i am. out of his control. that one just dropped to bits in front of me. okay, so we going the right way. he can die. now he's bee splitting himself to command each level, so there's quite a lot. but nothing like as badly as the rest of us. we can do this. but i don't understand what it is i did to make it happen. find out an teach the others.
as for the future coming to meet us; yes he made them come the other way; from their 'beginning of time'. but i refuse to panic. think. we meet 'the future' every day. in essence all we will know is tat suddely some very odd people will turn up. thats all. so i told satan n yetzoah to get ready for it. but think now it may not be so bad. 1. they are in the same boat as us. 2. if we scared so will they be. so i got to figure out how i just killed that gay last night. i my ave no future; the earth r1 may have an awful shock. but all of them will go on. so arm them. give them ome bloody chance. wilco.
for me its obvious i must be 'god' for a bit. but i reject 'good' its a set of nice behaviours, but we in the middle of a war. an anyway everyone of those good ideas has to be examined. so what i set myself is to forget all that crap; good n evil. i knw he is the enemy. an i am going to bring it down around his ears. or he can find crumbles an go. crumbles is painless. its final. he won't be dragged back to punishment. he can just go.
think he will.
as for the king he set me up. an also his own son. now we see it. well they are going to stop that. they are remembering. i knew it! there's no reason why wiv a few changes the gods can't do yoga etc. just remember your past lives. its your own memory. who can stop you? brents going to find i tell them what to do; they also tell me. we all three in one way or another are the gods. and he is not. many thanks for your helps. you did most of it rightly. but for your own purposes. are you on the winning team? if its gay you won't half be sorry. if its everyone else; who will be able to stand the sight of you? knowing what you were really doing?
your own son will look on you as a stranger. what have you won?
as for the future coming to meet us; yes he made them come the other way; from their 'beginning of time'. but i refuse to panic. think. we meet 'the future' every day. in essence all we will know is tat suddely some very odd people will turn up. thats all. so i told satan n yetzoah to get ready for it. but think now it may not be so bad. 1. they are in the same boat as us. 2. if we scared so will they be. so i got to figure out how i just killed that gay last night. i my ave no future; the earth r1 may have an awful shock. but all of them will go on. so arm them. give them ome bloody chance. wilco.
for me its obvious i must be 'god' for a bit. but i reject 'good' its a set of nice behaviours, but we in the middle of a war. an anyway everyone of those good ideas has to be examined. so what i set myself is to forget all that crap; good n evil. i knw he is the enemy. an i am going to bring it down around his ears. or he can find crumbles an go. crumbles is painless. its final. he won't be dragged back to punishment. he can just go.
think he will.
as for the king he set me up. an also his own son. now we see it. well they are going to stop that. they are remembering. i knew it! there's no reason why wiv a few changes the gods can't do yoga etc. just remember your past lives. its your own memory. who can stop you? brents going to find i tell them what to do; they also tell me. we all three in one way or another are the gods. and he is not. many thanks for your helps. you did most of it rightly. but for your own purposes. are you on the winning team? if its gay you won't half be sorry. if its everyone else; who will be able to stand the sight of you? knowing what you were really doing?
your own son will look on you as a stranger. what have you won?
Monday, 11 January 2010
drat
o hells bells i just realised what i am doing! i'm being bloody good again aren't i? wot is it wiv me for christs sake? why can't i ever learn to be a lying murderous bastard like everyone else.
wots the betting i been damned again? blimey i'd better undam meself while i still remember how?
silly bloody woman i reckon its blooming unnatural! i know i got to be evil! blowed if i ever remember to do it LIKE EVER!!
oh rats, i am weary. getting in bath. will inspect toes. start by learning to be evil on subject of toes silly bitch...how many you got, idiot?/
395..??
wots the betting i been damned again? blimey i'd better undam meself while i still remember how?
silly bloody woman i reckon its blooming unnatural! i know i got to be evil! blowed if i ever remember to do it LIKE EVER!!
oh rats, i am weary. getting in bath. will inspect toes. start by learning to be evil on subject of toes silly bitch...how many you got, idiot?/
395..??
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