a powerhouse

i'm working like a powerhouse these days. just wrote out all the instructions on mahayoga. asked great father, that eagle in the near future who appears to be trying to suss me out, and poor lost beauty [who i have found] to get me through it all. its to put right all i did wrong because of gay. but i set a limit. or several. 1. i will give joy any time i can. niether will i deprive myself of joy. 2. this purusha seems odd. i will judge it as well. 3. omnipresence i shall avoid. none of the other gods were that daft. if you explode your mind like that i'm not surprised you never reappear; you just blown up is all. seems unnatural and a form of suicide. remember vivek an co are trying to get out; know its all endless descents into hell. so they give up all joy and hope; and vanish. but i will stay n put it right. i know it wasn't hell to begin with. i know how it got this way. i must put it right. so i want some of the powers [skills] they are manifestations of the same maya yes. but bloody useful ones! anyway the one power we need is omnipresience. to know in advance. i suppose i already got that...anyhow feel these 3 great eagles will help. bit nervous; they must have faith in someone who has done them much wrong. we shall see.

thank god for yoga! you see how the genius or great men who discoverd it did it taught it transmitted it...do you see they were greater than all other men put together? and we don't know the name of even the least of them. so these are your real teachers and saviours; so unattached to egoism they give us this way; and no religion, no prises. no history even. compare to your religious founders!

mahayoga contains kundalini. another yoga really quite important is karma yoga; with this one you will recall past lives as a matter of course. just these three practised as much and as regularly as poss plus all this teaching...and one by one you will be gods. raja-yoga is mastery. those who only want to moon after holy people are doing bhakti yoga. the one which just gets in the way is hatha yoga; the one all about perfect body. they forget what all the yogas are; travel out of the body/world. so read the bhagavad gita. and the rest is practice, practise, practise. but then you have the choice. vanish. or stay short of 'perfect freedom' which to me sounds a bit like blowing your brains out; and start putting things right.

hope you choose to stay.