bit better today

hoo i dunno how but i'm coming back to you all. right up to last night terribly tired. all i could do was sleep, like massive great blocks of sleeping. but today up early, housework ok, coughing better, no particular tpr. seeing doctor at 0930m. going to try to make him understand the nightly battle, the weird things happening. no i don't want to endure Pearl!! or get banged up wiv the moronic nurses in QMH or SPH...but i need help. someone who knows its happening to be wiv me. my daughter simply will not come here. dunno why. she visits peggy/my mum...but never answers me. maybe she scared? whatever, its unforgiveable. she's able to ring me the next day and ask me to pick up boys etc...but never seems to understand this is no joke, its the end. unless i'm strengthened, wiv someone. thats why i go back to work asap; to keep it out, under control.
anyway i will get back to the history soon, and also start describing things i seen out there. its bad. whoever reads this WILL start remembering themselves. prepare for a terrible nervous breakdown....its not easy to discover that after death which should be heaven, thats what we were all made for....in fact is the most ghastly stupendous Hell. and the worst ppl you can imagine are the victors, your torturers, think of nazis, murderers....real hellstars. they are in charge. to be accepted, you have to please them; or be worse.

so they call me the Devil? now u see it doesn't mean the same to me as it means to the damn fool christians. its 'God' who is evil. i am a rebel. anyone wiv any guts will join me. and anyway i'm not black. nor shiny. very colourful, yes. actually my favourite colour is blue/indigo...