gods plan

i sort of recall. in the very far future Gay is showing me various beings in awful agony. he turns, smiles and says...'but Gerry this is what they're for...why do you think I did it all?'
Again a few years back I wa trying to come to terms with spiritlands. So I was looking at a great thin wheel. at the top was this dark place. in order for me to get past someone had to 'pay the ticket' or something. it was Yaldabaoth as I called him then. he was murdering a christ, a small weak one. As he did so the wheel turned and apparently I was past that obstacle. I begged for the man's life; again Gay told me thats what christs 'are for'. But that was a person, not a key!! I shuddered at the horror of what Gay has done to all in the spiritlands. But 'its either him or you'.
so he did it all. killed the real good Gods, made filthy pacts and ghastly hells everywhere wiv the evil; he offers me always the chance to 'be saved' if only I go round allowing or even doing evil cruel things. and i expect thats true for everyone. all of it to exercise his cruelty.
not too far ahead he appears on a raised stone dais. below him many many ppl. all human looking, not deviily. and he tells them they are judged as failures, cruel, stupid...because they never worked out that evil is the right answer.

and they are broken in despair, as he stands there omnipotent, telling them all the suffering wiv no escape or redress or relief. forever. they are niether good nor bad. they are his chosen victims is the truth. and where are the 'evil' those nasty insane cruels? oh they're heading for exactly the same; a lot already there in those silent places. they just don't know it yet. because he will switch off their 'power' and they will find that Hell is the mess they made which now is jail, and they also
will never leave off their suffering and despair. Gay can't see any difference between the good and the evil, mainly because he always meant to corrupt a lot of the good to prove the good were really evil. and he can't have zillions of happy, omnipotent cruel, ambitious devils running about where he can't watch them now can he? someone might do it to him!

anyway I stand exactly as I was before it began. I've tried to be evil really i have, it just won't stick. so back again damned for being good. if you think maybe I'm something they need. well nobody needs HIM.

so anyway whosoever reads this; have you noticed a lot of odd scary nasty things happening lately? sounds of crowds, or children or ducks screaming? similar? but when you look there's nothing? me too. for months. i think he's trying to end the world by black magic. certainly very nasty ppl keep appearing, meddling...but then you find they are not recognised by the regular staff. if this world is a lot more porous than we know then whats happening is that you are becoming aware of the spiritlands. they are closer? we are waking? anyhow you see what I mean....the spirits are cruel meddling morons. the other worlds are absolute nightmares. if they won't turn and fight Gay to death...then us humans must. if we die we go out there. if Gay is bringing them here....

so you see my plan? and you see his? choose evil, you get him for god. i don't want to be god. but i want to live somewhere nice, be with ppl i can love. oh by the way you don't have to die to get there. its a speeded up realm, you just use your mind. if you get clever; they can stand here so you can talk to them. or we can probably go there. anyway test what they tell you. don't be gullible. an angel might lie, a devil be hideously deformed from years of torture. the further out you go the less like earth it gets. you couldn't stay on earth forever anyway...but you can live as immortals out there. your choice then. do you want to clean it up first?

why you do! so do I!! that makes us.....good?