situation starting to move?

good day at work, tony and me joshing around and i suddenly said we ought to get married then we can argue 24 hrs a day! he laughed but you know he flushed and joked he'd have to lose the wife...ah, bless. he been thinking that way in secret? but i was kidding..oh well life is just annoying. never mind. anyhow i explained all about films blah blah and all of a sudden he 'saw it'...now he's supporting me. so next thing is to sort out benefits; but i already worked out that [if i get the full load], i'll actually be better off! browns' britain! so it sounds like josh will back me up as well. sph legal and welfare unit can steer me through the maze. which leaves the bozos in hr and gary...marie might be no use; sounds like she's telling ppl different things. anyhow, realised i got to do 'homeward bound' first and in England by myself; with whatever grants/other tyros i can find. Get 1 you get the rest. Ditto 'lemon trees' . storyboard is useful, but not the control they say. maybe i just don't 'see'... anyhow sat wiv me pad for 30 mins nothing doing. no poem today. that story board...its supposed to show you dead spots, gaps..well i only just started. early days.

so tuesday i got to 1. do agency and 2. have another crack at getting mind into Anatta. double the dose. trouble is i get that blooming problem for days afterward. before i told tony about it and i was amazed he understood...but now i don't think so. oh well at least it makes life very interesting; if a bit liable to piss off strange god. with him i got the idea he don't like pork. so for weeks now i avoid bacon...but have a weakness for saveloys. i don't want to offend the old boy. at the same time i get so flaming hungry...i told him saveloys consist entirely of taters anyhow.
so nothing much got done oday, except i saw mum this am, an she seems much better. she gave me £40 too, which was welcome. time for my bath.