saved?

so o no doctor. got an hour to spare? big me's spirits [yes!] i was dead but then they turned p. today they're saying i will be left in hells foul and they won't come bak to help 'any of them even though their time be long overdue' so i swore and said but i haven't done anything wrong stop calling me Jesus. and then phoned tony going back to work tomorrow and started telling him about the black cruels will torture the evil too...and then saw the 'angel me's' smiling. got it in one! you are damned for your good deeds, given pleasure and power if you re cruel and indifferent to suffering. so now you see why the world is the way it is. half the populatuon knows this..and do nasty little cruelties as often as poss. which of course means its hell in the end just as before. anyway to save myself or at least die out i swore to do a sin however small, however great, every day. an i shall look up to heaven and say bless me father for i have sinned. and they will. so now they smile.

but thats your answer.