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reincarnation is TRUE. even a lot of the gods do it; usually lowers, all seeking answers. why the blazes they think living lives so far below them, all ignorant and messy, will teach them anything i can't imagine. but i do know how it started. some never do, of course. the Doves, the Eagles, Satans...oh well i know now and then he does have holidays. he likes to be killer-whales he likes their tidy minds. me i never thought killer-whales had minds, so never tried that. also he is evil, though much more hearty and generally helpful than one expects, so of course he tends to get into murderers and take part, etc. but i dunno that he kills himself. just got to wave the flag of evil, keep his side up, sort of thing. but make no mistake, he is a dangerous sod if you upset him. yetzoah? hm, i dunno. you see i not only have father seabreezes memory, but somehow a lot of yetzoahs....but i don't know how. its just as well, because i know how desperately ill he can be i feel always that he should be given an easy, gentle tolerance. remember none of these made themselves that way...they are not innocent, but do you see they cannot help it either? when at last i saw this i made great efforts to make them understand i am no more their enemy, but a friend if they want to be. anyway i have promised them to always give them a second chance, to never judge them too harshly, to remember how unfair life has been to them, to always always ask them why they have done whatever. but i know i can be a bit of a tempest, so i hope they too remember i didn't make myself this way either, and if they are not allowed to forgive then understanding is the next best thing. so anyway i'm pretty sure he doesn't live lives at all.

but you know this living lives thing is a mistake for us all. consider it as daft! how can highers learn from lowly lifers? they can't. you were all made by the Dove to live one or two lives on each level. you then go up to find yourself a higher on the next level. then to be a 'god'; and finally, knowing the Dove so well in love and joy be oned with him. then he would have closed down each phase and moved onto the next. but of course these are the same ppl more or less all over again. you see at once it was all supposed to be fairly short, not huge long phases going all mad and wars and god knows what else. and another thing, it was all about his own development. so he would by our many unitings have grown wiser and stronger etc. at the pinnacle of his development it would all be either in him or rejected as i have said. so this tells you as well that absolutely everyone he made came out of him; so ARE him, a little share of his mind or spirit. which last just made Satan feel sick i bet. but its true. so really if you read thsese teachings and accept them you should greet each other thus; 'hallo me, i'm you, how can i not love you? ' or words to that effect.

because i repeats it. the evil ones damned all these the good, well whatever for? by definition the didn't do anything. an if seabreeze is really cruel as you see he is....well then aren't they potentially evil too? but of course if things like love and kindness and pity are actually evil, sins an all that well what the fuck are we arguing about?? if your thing is fangs and venom and eating your sons well even the devils won't like you that much. and then you live in a noxious hell; which is a bloody punishment! right? an if my particular sin is going around making ppl happy and making ppl put their heavens in reasonable order to do which you stop the old torturing stop the evil bellowing and plant food type plants, well for gods sake its a sin innit? its just my sins atren't the same as yours.

after all didn't we all fall into enmity because we all thought each other was ever so cruel? well i'm not. on the other hand the gods have all noticed i can't half swear, am liable to clock the sodswhen in a temper[not that i'm like that on earth,, for i remembers to be a lady] and generally though i will not mock them, i also get fed up being damned by that lot for something i can't help either. when after all Gay made me doubly good and so made bloody sure i'd never be okay. what a total barstard! so who is the source of all cruelty? well its him, right? so if the evil damn those they think is cruel, 1. i had the prickle of cruelty and kicked it out with vigour and 2. why aint he damned? because their misery and that of the poor stupid good is all his doing! not that i waited for them to sort it out. i damned him myself the other day. and 3. think carefully. father seabreeze couldn't remember creating me. for years i was under the impression i started as a spare soul in a wardrobe. but the reason was because he didn't make me, and neither did anyone else. i have remembered my beginning in first place, and i just stepped out of Anattas with the others. but i don't think i was first out. someone tripped, so he was first out, but i dunno who it was now, probably the one who we all thought was crackers because he never ever stopped talking about plants. a bit shortsighted, that one.

so anyway you see they started reincarnation when father seabreeze simply never showed up. we didn't know why or what happened for donkeys years. so everyone basically got every possible thing wrong. and Gay used it didn't he? for to make us all forget and forget everything,every time. so we never learned anything whatever, including the fact that Evil is the imposed law of the flaming universe. so the 'good' can't adapt, everybody keeps being eaten, [souls i mean] and most ppl get into terriible trouble and STILL don't know why. yet its still resolvable. teach ppl the history, get it into everyones heads that both the 'good' and the 'evil' are in a ghastly trap. lets all see if we can do it. accept each other, make allowances, let the good do what they do best, make nice selfsustaining heavens. let the evil do what they're good at. howzabout getting hold of Gay and showing him in a very personal way that cruelty is the only real evil and even the bloody evil have had enough of it, ta,now piss off you barstard an never come back?

so anyway i teaches you to be kind and to love and even to let pity into your heart. now if you do that all day long you will come a cropper, because you will wind up good. okay? so in the evil gods eyes do it the right way! you know its a sin. so say so. claim it. its a beautiful sin, true. but you know when you try to love the evil, be just towards them; what they going to do? complain? when their whole moanings and groanings was because of being unkindly unfairly cruelly treated? and if you happen to love a good person. well howzat a sin? i always feel as long as theres plenty of sex and you don't upset the neighbors its not their business anyway. or do they expect me to have sex with ppl i can't stand? when you think thats what the bloody false religionists do all the time? which is more sinful? well if i have to choose i'd rather have someone i love. women are like that, and so are men, at least clever ones usually know that. so if evil ones CAN'T love, not even i n little ways well what else can you do but be sorry for them? but i think they can; as long as its properly sinful.

so we all got to start somewhere. me i try to love Satan and Yetzoah. they are evil by father seabreezes unkind will. if i try to be their friend everyone shrieks i do wrong. but you see it is really right. now let them try the same...its a sin for them. right? but i shall be pleased and when i'm pleased they will know it. but they are ny elders so i listen to them, still i reckon they will like to listen to me in the end. a strange friend. well i shall try to cheer them up. after all do THEY want to go to hell? of course not. well there you are then. we the losers who wind up the winners; logically you build a really nice dwelling and enjoy your luxury and riches!

and anyone who thinks otherwise is an idiot. so we have to do something sensible about all this blooming reincarnation. but i dunno what. well its bedtime. i'm on earlies tomorrow.