script 1. done!

had a nice sleep. about 20 minutes ago typed up 'the dark room' saved/printed...its no a long piece. but i can't judge by eye yet. will just have to film it on diddycam today and see what the timing is like..and everything else. trust jay jay!! no power cable/usb cable for cam...so one thing is get a large lockable plastic box for al equipment, cables, manuals, useful thingies. otherwise each film will take 5 years cos that bloody boy is a magnet; anything you absolutely have to have..gone. and we all know its him. second essential; clear out junk room. keep stuff film, auction etc. plus usual 'too good to chucks'... the pound shop in mitcham f.g. has just such boxes pus notebooks. will pick up all essentials on way back from mum's...

i'm so proud of that script!! i can never remember the correct format; so its my own....can type it up the proper way later. but this way its much smoother; not held up every second worrying about indents etc etc....so if i write it out longhand its much better for me. anyhow there it is. think i'll frame a copy.

been thinking. the eagles were good, now evil. are the spirits living in their own uncs? so the black sea-eagles are good only to the evil? and the white Doves were to be good but only to the good? but now father seabreeze has had his lessons; he will have to be the same as the Eagles? saw last night; was asking whether i could be altered. he just looked at me. so now he sees his real nature...he will be worse than the Eagles??? an here's me sticking out like the sore thumb of the cosmos because i'm still 'good' ie white?? damn and blast!!

but every night as i drift off to sleep am aware that what caused me such suffering to find out and then realise i must adapt; in my subcs its perfectly okay cos i'm already evil?. thats why i wonder if when you die you simply turn your consciousness upside down? well when you look at 'evil' on earth you do find that there are 2 types. 1. a roaring, savage libido release, the absence of inhibitions. the other 2. the calculating cruelty kind, like cold, premeditated? so u got the roaring unconscious; murderers etc. and the machiavellian cruels...the superego pointed outwards? hm. interesting idea, isn't it?
cos we all agree that reality is a shared illusion. i don't know what you see when we both look at a table. there's no way to compare perceptions. in the spiritlands what they ARE is minds in various appearances. like the same person can be an dragon, a bult bird. an angel, or whatever. so perhaps they aren't locked each one into his peculiar perceptions? maybe the spiritlands are in some way the shared, lived in primal, collective uncs?? well it would explain something. but i dunno what.

tonight we go on wiv the history