islam and me

right i first met Allah donkeys years ago in some wild an lonely place out there. if you think of the spirtlands as levels rising from the earth then we are in reality 1, sometimes i call it it the physical. now even here where everything is matter an wewalk round in monkey suits the spiritlands do interfere. but now you know that a lot of that is actually nasty, not helpful at all. anyway so counting on levels this is maybe 12 up. so yes you can meet the gods. why it keeps falling to me to be treated as another when obviously i'm not i dunno. anyway so there was myself, young man in prussian blue, usual blonde hair. but i guessed i hadn't been the only biggie to get into this new world, there was Allah and beside him an old friend i kbnew ages ago; one Zion. so we met an talked. now Allah was so bright and shining i couldn't see him clearly. he reckoned to me he had always been so. Zion looked like himself, he collect the Jewish ppl an friends. I remember he began as an ordinary angel. he's a great one now. but just the same, very secretive, prone to his own version of 'magic' as you will hear in due course. but we have been allies for years. so we agreed in our 'new birth' ignorant state to share what we had and protect each other as well. because we were all 3 reasonable good 'gods' Zion these days looks like a tall venerable old man. no beard. but powerfully built an given to wearing very ornate robes. like decorated ? he also appears in his very own light show; kind of lights an he's on both your left and your right? anyway we were busy making agreements. i made it perfectly clear i was not 'god' that i didn't know how or why i kept coming back and i was telling them how everywhere was somehow wrong, i was in danger all the time. Which is when they discovered i keep on being dragged into living lives!! Then along came Satan. that terrible atmosphere he has of fear and horror. he forced them to obedience to him. which is when they found out that my words were true; the wrong ones have too much power. well all 3 of us were dragged down. Satan then dragged me up to the high place....its always the same big white mountain. an there i tried to bring him down. i declared as Law 'they shall pay all they owe'... knowing it would destroy me also. so off he went, telling me this was my last time. now that was long ago.

since then i lived several lives under Islam. In fact Allah himself was very good to me, an i felt i was a bit of a saint. but of course all these lives were male. not rich; i never had a rich life yet. but you know, one of the favoured sex. i used to AGREE wiv Allah in 'prayer' how women were nothing, even your mother is only a tool to be used and chucked out at any excuse. As a man i simply was deaf and blind to the evil i lived in under Islam. and this wasn't that long ago. by human reckoning maybe a century?

in fact i loved Allah, lived by that faith, seeing no qrong. men are terrible like that. as long as thy are number 1 every shit is all right by them. so in future don't listen to a male 'prophet'...its all selfserving lies. Yes Allah exists. so does Zion, so do i. we at least do not eat souls. so that is one great virtue all 3 of us have. so that is good to be able to say that. in my last life as an islamic Allah told me i must live another life, and that i would turn on him. i begged him not to abandomn me. and he didn't, actually.

so what is Allahs 'heaven ' like? its out there, so no weather an he stays shining at his end. the other end is all huge dusty ugly medieval tenements. just like anywhere in gaza or morocco. boring. and populated very thinly. in those tenements a few ghastly old men, who's chief virtue is 1. reading koranic crap til their brains are mush and 2. yep, hating women. there are NO women there at all. they stay for centuries, but eventually they reurn to live again. anyway i know what happens to even the most inoffensive, pious and dumbest islamic female. her life ruined in that slavery; the there she is routinely murdered and her form just thrown out. female=worthless, even in heaven...an no, even i never saw it as the horrible cruel nonsensical evil it was. because in fact due to the folly of the old gods and the bloody daft Doves there are few real Female spirits in existence. so nearly all the women on earth ARE male spirits; just the same as the others. but in death ppl keep the form/persona they know for quite a while? now you see how stupid it is.
unfair an in the end meaningless. its because there are no great female gods that its all loveless and sexless and joyless and grey out there. and its the reason why women here try so hard to be feminine; because really they're blokes. an i suppose some men deep down know they've been robbed of joy, of kindness etc. so they wish to BE women, here on earth. i can't help but feel sympathy for them. at least they know something is very wrong. but its not within them.

anyhow so Allah one day summoned me, usual soul servility. then he told me i had to g. he picked me up and sucked my head. he said i'd understand one day. of course i do. it was to show me he can't eat soul. anyway there stood a grey shattered young man Allah said it was Jesus. that meant to me e was an esteemed one, nothing more. i flung my robe round him and said welcome in Allahs name. Jesus screamied about demons. i thought he was mad; said 'this poor unfortunate imbecile doesn't know hs lord!' Jesus screamed more; so Allah let him sleep. i did not understand when Allah told me he was important to me. but i sorrowed that i was to leave Allah. he promised to help me. then he told me to 'go to hell' and like a good muslim i was afraid but obeyed. and hell turned out to be earth!!

i became christian in 1974. i think now to escape Gays destruction. but then all i knew was my love for Jesus, christianity. and went off to Morooco on a cheap holiday. I will not sully your minds wiv the filth and cruelty and outright evil i saw every day in that awful islamic hellhole. because this time i'm female and then was a militant libber. but i have loathed islam ever since. that is one set of beliefs straight from Gay. in fact every religion which abuses women in the end you will find is under Gays patronage. so you see all earth religions are now suspect.

and they both came to me in Fez. Zion whisphered about some floor next door to the old university. he wants that in Zion, so i l know the Jews if they survive will again have a prophet and presumably a Temple. i did write the chief rabbi about it. but was ignored. feel sorry for that guy when he meets Zion! He also told me to baptise a different way to save a baby. but thiis was years before i had Kez. anyhow Allah took up all the sky, like sunshine but a man? angels flying round him. he said, 'i have faithfully loved you. become a muslim, have 3 muslim sons and be happy. i will send the man to you that you MUST marry'....CRASH!!

what i said was loud and long. no. also wot the fuck did he mean keep saying about compassion when everything the filth in morocco showed me made me enraged and violent because of its cruelty and craziness; we rowled. i'm afraid i hit him. twice. i didn't remember anything. just you don't pretend to be holy wiv that lot in front of my eyes. he went off swearing to destroy me. i promised him war an defeat, hoped he liked swimming in blood, etc. and went back knowing i'm bloody right. islam as it is now is the work of devils, through the sick opinions of a nasty 'prophet' who i know Allah stuck in a hell all his own the moment the bloody man died. anyway so me an Allah have been not such great pals ever since.

its worse. he came back after Father Seabreeze; and because i was certain and stayed firm, though in fact i still didn't know enough, he left wondering.

and last year i met him again. being a bit insane at the time we were out there in spiritland and i simply lost my temper. been under a lot of stress, so i beat him up, being conveniently a big male god at the time. i think thats me when i remember to be jehovah? but not sure. and Allahs lights went out. he stood before me a tall thin black devil. And i have to say he really was truly sorry. nevertheless i kicked his arse out into space and he can come back an clean it all up. but not while i'm around. so do you see? A bright god, yet thats what was hid inside? yet he hasn't done anything particularly wrong. so i don't understand. really i can't understand.