funny...

i dunno i feel quite loopy wiv happiness today! no money for the auctions in the end and anyway it was raining....but today its still raining but i don't care. just happy an i'm glad i'm me. that dreadful boy has not come back thank god it saves me explaining in toddler terms exactly why he must not ever again promise no woman anything because he can't deliver. and then chuck him out a third time. this bloke is a boxer, tough etc. but i have come to believe i am stronger than all of them put together. an i don't swear or shout. may god forfend that i should ever be to them as they are. anyhow i'm happy.

think today will do my bits n bobs...starting wiv tl2 which is dangerously delayed. then 1 poem, have a read, s/wtg. just another day off sick; time i did something wiv it. maybe someone is coming into my life? thats wot its like; a birthday tomorrow feeling.

speaking of birthdays this year is my 85 th!! there's reasons for that. but ppl be surprised; inviting ppl to eats....and they MUST mark it as my 85 th...

you know i slagged off islam? i can say worse for all the religions of earth. same old evil in all of them. but you know i must not fall into an evil like theirs unbeknowns. you know each religion declares that ANYONE out of their faith shall go to Hell be lost in flames forevermore?

you will be glad to know that i don't think so. speaking as the only good god i know thats not how i see things at all. consider that poor islamic gentleman a year ago. his house in Iraq was bombed and his wife, mother and two daughters killed. he wept in absolute grief; he really loved them. i say to him his love and grief have saved him; if i knew a real Heaven i would break my bones to get him there. he is not damned because he loves, even those he was taught all his life to despise. whereas a fellow islamic, brutal, a slaver, believing to touch pork or drink alcohol is worse than these or lying or murder...such a man is damned however wildly he believes or however much he prays because he is blind to the evil he is doing/becoming. and this same thing is true all over the world, in whatever circumstance. so your average christian is also damned, because the same filth is in them; hatred of women, blighting the minds of children,a cowardly obedience to those they know quite well are cruel, blind guides. and everyone always says at this point oh, the buddhists are better. no they are worse. their social systems stink; and its buddhists who have boasted to me how they have burned girls 'who misbehave'...since that turns out to mean they refused to prostitute themselves to order; do you see that its they, not the girls, who must burn?
and all of it, from the destruction of women to the very nasty wars right through history it is all of it the works of evil masquerading as the divine will of 'God'? i say lose that God, and be quick about it. them and their prophets! why if they met any such prophet today they'd all see at once that these teachers have lied over and over; that their 'love' is the false light which hangs over the maw of the ghastly deep sea predator? can't you imagine such a 'prophet'? then i will do it for you.....he stinks like a goat, his words are maniacal, his god vision if it be true is also a trap and if he's lying then you know he is evil. most prophets were illiterate, all of them marked by their hatreds, none of them able to reason or even test the spirit on them. how could you after all these ages still be so childishly dependent on the words of such tramps?

so in my heart i say i am a god who is no fool. i will love a good man, a kind woman, a good worker, an honest daughter, a brave son, the faithful priest who amends wrong, the generous brother, the loyal sisters, the truthful, the fine neighbor, the soldier who only protects those in his charge and also will not stoop to murder even of his vile enemy. yes let me throw open Heaven to the honest leaders, the rightminded, the goodhearted....and it does not matter to me what is his religion for his conduct has beaten it. so yes if i ever live to bring about a real Heaven those are they whom i invite. from anywhere, anyone, who is like these. and what else is the mark of the heavenly, but that they love, and are kind, and can pity?

but to those who can only reply with hate and violence and jealousy....you know where you go. its where you belong, is it not?