another bit.

what to ask for in prayer.
1.now you see Satan, and therefore all his lessers and lowers, are Sons, ditto the Yetzoahs? but they are adopted by the seaeagles; thats damned in the right way. but under Gay the same eagles only reward evil? because Gay has madethis the right answer. and you see at once that if there are two Doves one is a fool the other a cruel? and if they be one and the same isn't he just a mess? pity me my dear seeker; i had a uniting of some sort with him! thats how i got all this\ memory. unfortunately its as if it were ny own! so you see for years as fifferent information got into my mind i been going mad trying to work it out. and just so you know i am often grateful for all that Gay taught me long ago. but if you think he's the cancer causing all this. if i could find a god god not cruel, i would run for healing, truth, light. but there isn't one. any god left alive knows he has to keep back an evil side to himself and the ability to do great violence. otherwise in all that your only option is suicide.
2. so its not good to pray them for good things. if they answer, its because you have persisted when they said no, and so what you get is a punishment. so one guy asked yetzoah to hear the music of the spheres. innocent. he persisted after being told no. so yetzoah simply roared horribly with all his might right in the mans ears for a year or so. and set him down, deaf, mad with horror, hating music forever. but he got his answer.
so if you insist its wrong, like a spoilt american child you are trying to rule over your elders. accept that some prayer is wrong. so ppl ask jesus for healing and mysterious nice feelings and to have him inside and be in him and go to heaven ? now think you that jesus is cruel, a hungry predator? now you know why saints are fools for god.
3. with the Satans i only learn as u do. i think they will grant any prayer so long as it is 'sinful' as meaured by the general ideals of seabreeze. so if you ask for healing its all jesusy and the answer is no. but u can ask to get a competent doctor to fix this busted arm aint life shtty satan? and by tuesday there will be a doctor. u see? carefully think what u really need, and also whether your desire fits in with the various laws of the universe.so u can ask for information, but not truth. you can ask for anything the church says is wrong, like for a woman to be made a priest. incidentally i am that woman. its my great honour to say that was when i discoveredosatan doesnn't treat women differently and he can be generous and nice and is glad when ppl like him as anyone is. and that was when i began to like satan and to see he wasn't entirely the vile enemy we was taught. its the other one, jesus, whoi s predjudiced. anyhow i digress.

now what we all need is the one thing Gay and his minions take away. memory. so ask for your memory to be repaired but ask ony for little bits. anyone who has to remember all of it in one lifetime had better be extremely healthy. as you rember fix what you can. learn next to go out. and start asking for small needed abilities/powers. only ask for that which is truly useful, and also ask satan and yetzoah to teach you how to accept different pleasures and put you i touch with others of their friends. and while you're at it repair your soulhouse. rember its seabreezes ideas of saxrifice, selfdenial, etc\which are wrong. so have a nice heaven, decorated as\YOU desire. but be careful. Gay destroys those too big, or anyone with a nice place, or any prety ones. but don't go mad and make your heaven a medieval style hell because a. you will give yourself nightmares . b. you won't have any visitors and c. Gay will shut you down and you'll be locked in. so make it selfsustaining somehow? fruitrees or something.

just to tell you what i discovered. you remember that young man born of my spirit on the kings lap? he said he was antichrist? you see what a good brave boy he was. now he said he would awayswear black, i forget why, and that he liked luxury and riches...but in the spirit worlds there is no money.....here in reality 1 luxury is bananas or jewels or palaces. but out there its genius, followers, knowldge, powrers and abilities. see? you don't always judge rightly if you don't know both history and geography. oh i remember? he was always to wear black as a mark that he understood the laws and to be obviously the opposite of Jesus. Jesus was to appear with crosses and ban the bombs? and that poor boy[i never had a chance to name him] was to appear with sunshine and nightime either side and crows and lambs, cats etc. i suppose they were to have met and rowled somewhere. can't happen now. unless jesus picks on me. that might not be the most civilised conversation; not biblical...more billingsgate. oh leave him unemployed, do.