effing cicero

finished it. well skimmed vast tracts on civic duty, cozening false support by bribes + good acting. all of it sort of wrong because its directed, a successful life [civic, fame, wealth,]= a wise life? i dunno. christians lap it up, but none of this is virtue proper. which should be self won, ready for hardship, stress, something evil on u? yes? and in times of ease only directed to be modest? moderate? thats wot i think anyway. so wot shall virtue be founded on? for the Greeks and Romans patrotic /civic life. For religionists they think to bribe God? but really there is a kind of rigid and sterile structure to these ideas. you know they practically draw diagrms; this virtue depends on that ne, blah blah.
so start from the beginning, as if i were again the chief of a bunch of immigrants who got concepts and must give them a way or rule for being nice to know. why? well i want them to live, be well, decent companions and ready to love. Because Anat-Anatta is like a hive mind? there's no you in there to love me, so to speak. So in Anat there was no speech, no seperate you for me to love and touch and be glad with. so Anat-Anatta divided and thus was us; the you's and the you's. see? so Anat-Anatta wants to know what they-us look like, what they-us is. And found something which turned out to be spacetime but how it got there and why its mostly spiritland except down below where it turns physical on you i don't know; only i think the Anat-Anattas felt it; like a draught? so they-us are mostly intelligence but this was new ideas!

so i think i begin where the idiot religionists think is the end. i know my concepts will go on, mostly in other bits of the place. they will have different lives, different minds. so i need them to remember, to love learning and be fitting their new kind of existences. i do not want ant troubles to afflict them. i want them to be able to live wherever they need to, and always to fit..u wld call it adapt, and above all to remember us, the way back and to enjoy each other and this new existence. right? so i say they need always three; faith, hope and love; which some call charity. yes i suppose the love one feels for children, fathers, lovers all of which is good; but u have to be ready to give and accept even very different things. so the top love is this open to appeal, sensible of need kind of love, which yes is charity. so virtue then starts as these the ground of what it is, what its for, and yet leaves room for all kinds of new existences.
And so a lot of virtues are really a kindly, reasonable, balanced character. no strain. if your idea of virtue is so tough you simply queue for the nearest bonfire then your religion has made you ill.
Some ppl of course are evil; but you see how that started. And everyone hates the evil; so the base state of all living is the opposite; or they would be very popular instead. so that is evidence that all of you began good. even those trained and addicted to evil only do it because of the history of the universe; they know the Gods reward them. they want to live/succeed, exactly like the rest. And over time all of you have become hard, selfish, stupid, cruel, insane of money which is the only real god any of you love round here, even those 'philosophers' who affect to despise money will not starve. And you notice they have no families. So they are putting on a good show. Thats not virtue.
So now yes i will be honest, reasonable, decent, clean, lovimg. But to deprive myself of innocent pleasure because i obey wot must be a bloody daft god is insane. Life has hardship anyway; why add to the burden? i will be an incorrupt official in my work, i will occaisionaly be generous to beggars, but i will be generous a lot more often to those who i love. And i will not play this asinine game of which virtue is best. i will try to have them all, but in modesty keep them hid. And they will be mine, not an act. And wot wisdom is is to know what is best to do or be each moment that fate puts this or that before you. Now what is a wise man? For a start he knows history, and he makes up his mind to be ready for the many trials of life; always knowing that love and faith and hope are what makes him a virtuous man. And yes we learn courage, like them all we learn it. No baby is born so brave! So no worries. You pick n mix, you train yourself, life tests you and behold! you got a virtue.
So wot i says to Kant and his categorical imperative? ought is not an imperative because nobody HAS to obey. 'ought' is what it sounds like, u ought but will u? 99% of the time u ask a bloke that as he's running away. No there are no imperatives, wthout love in all its forms there is no real virtue at all. So stop giving each thingie a name and start being alive in yourselves. And anyway Kant is wellnamed, because like a lot of these 'philosophers' he was a right asshole. So made up my mind.
Thank God now i can think about something else.