keep going

i think the possible futures are letting me know they will exist wiv all this singing. anyway Gays not around so i carry on. they need to know this stuff even more than man does. so Gay reurned and for years tortured all of us. now if you torture a spirit its pain and fear leak up like smoke. bit like electicity? so gay learned to harness and use that; he actually called it 'power', and now you see why, and that all Gays power comes from the suffering of others, and if you go round getting power thats what it is, its your agny far into the future.

Then one day he was gone. no-one knew where. once he'd gone though it took a while people felt better, were nicer to me. i began to have a little freedom. but something terible was coming; like a thunderstorm. So I know now what Gay did. He found a way to get out of First Place and fly into the futures. all of them. somehow he got that power over time and place and all that. so it must be from me, mustn't it?

anyhow one day he was back. he stared at me wiv his awful eyes. he said we will go for a walk. then we went out, into the streets and beyond the town and right to the foot of the mountain.
And I was trying desperately to grow a bit older. I knew as a child I had no chance. at first it began, but then he stopped me around 13 years old. I knew then everything and everyone was in terrible trouble.
so as i stood before him, he knelt and looked up at me. then he stood and unstantly flared into a huge brown round face like a clown; utterly disgusting. and something whooshed out of him like a electricity. it was all Gays old goodness. thats how i became the double positive? his opposite.

he looking on me says; i am the devil and female and evil'
i looking on him still all in white says; ' i am God, a male and i am good.'
i bargained wiv him to stay and be guided because i didn't know how to be God and i was afraid. now wasn't that stupid?
so i turned away and climbed the mountain all the way up into the universe. Fisrt Place is sunk in space i suppose we'd got it the wrong way up aand never knew. and never remembered any of it ever.