good day?

well baby sat for kez. she loved the bracelet and the purple ring; but the red ring didn't fit so joy! i got it. she looked so pretty all shimmery sparkles on her face. they went out to dinner and i cleaned her place up a bit, bathed the boys put em to bed. they were back by 11. i was surprised, usually its 4am. up again and my resolve the same. a beautiful day. people sort of looking at me, calming down, all pts settled and nothing much to do at work; pat having put on a really nice dinner for me. so i spent most of the day fashioning my futures...i don't have that much left so really i'm showing strange god my wishes. yes he's still with me. so all these months with the gods and there's a lot to do. today felt different. i know what it is. you know before a great change the world seems to hold its breath? like that. hm. i forgot to put the dates in. the poem 'to bringer f damnation' i did two days ago. the one 'my name' is oct 2008, and 'big brother and little love' is 07.02.1990. do not think i knew it all along. like everyone else i knew nothing, and the bits i remembered were so bad/weird i couldn't do owt but try to forget and get on with normal life.