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i don't want any. i'd like cp to drop in; feel she may find a lot useful, might even understand. but you can keep any comments to yourself. this is not fiction at all. you can grow up. or not. i do what i do anyway. and i'm not flwg anybody either. well cp. since i must have really insulted her. anyway i like the story.

right. so its a draggy childhood. needn't go on about it, so anyway there were murders and every kind of corruption. it was Gay who got me smoking. my one reward for all that, every day, was a fag. at an age when i couldn't sit up by myself. so you see why i hang on to it. now there were three of us in all that. but for now i think you ought to know that i am not evil. but a good of a very different kind. ancient. older than him, actually. but to make sure i'm going to be perfectly honest, i will do the things as i found them out in the right order. that means i might get a bit embarassing on you here and then.because i'm different. real. just stay with me.

about mental illness. they realised i was odd very young. about 7. but they did nothing about it til i was 10, when i went into care, had a shrink etc. all he talked about was sex. all of them do that. this stuff means nothing to them they said it was dreams. but it isn't. and in fact all they do is give you meds and ignore you. true. there's not one doctor i've ever told all this to. you can't. they are nearly animals. so yes i streak for the bin when Gay packs in trying to do all black magic and end the world. i get them to knock me out asap. its the only way to stop it. so far we're all still here. this is 4 times in all. the rest they were trying to stop me killing myself [years ago] and generally helping me get shot of my husband, thats all really.

so you see i became a nurse and now i help those who really are very ill and quite good at it too.
i earn my way, i don't do crimes or vices etc. my daughter survived, my grandsons grow and they love their gran like anything. i tell you this so you can judge whether be ill or evil. and the answer is no. and just so you know yes i was a terible womens libber when i was young; but you'll see why and how thats become more gentle. yes women have been oppressed and still are in many places. but now i love men; its also been hard for them.