get it on sister

bloody pt following me everywhere stupid attn-seeking all afternoon. nevertheless sat with manual [notes!!] for an hour and i'm happy i can do a lot just with that; but its too small and fiddly. but does simple movies and all burnable, pdf functions plus can upload to utube/websites etc very easily. so a good day. even dinner okay, though i had to make do with what i could find. bad news...bernard our fire boss died on monday. we don't know what of; he didn't drink or smoke. ex-fireman, so very fit. a nice honest man. terrible thing is he was going to retire next month!! awful; he worked all his life saved up, about to enjoy his retirement....and dead so suddenly. all of us thinking it could be us. anyway managed to be in garden and thought of my action. it was wrong. so wrote this; read learn inwardly digest.....this is for you brent [my one]...but also all the rest. if i should happen to wind up God...

The Exoneration.


Since i banned him
went and damned him
All grey be the world
Trees dripping sadly
''it was not right''
whisphers heart
'' he's afraid in the dark''
my sight showing me
the gods turning away...

How can i do that?
in tempest hit love
and by love broken
as i be, giving up all
for these to trust in me
that in me justice speaks
shall third history
come to the old black end?

I have damned this man my brother
and saw that dread dark face
that same sweet cruel smile
the Destroyers face in my face
that unholy thing my father....
damned us all to utter ruin
hating pity, hating reason.

So i reach again for heights beyond me
Before all alive declare i this
'my doom unjust, my rule was wrong'.
In all history none but he
ever stopped and looked on me;
and i reply with powers poison?
oh let me undo this thing corrupt,
and hate that which hates forgiveness
and defy that God my father
and bid thee go; i have forgiven thee.

And never again damn i another
they'll have to war to make it so;
depart in peace sweet brother Christ,
all thy life be kissed with lights,
our friendship is unbroken.

And what dares teach this wild godling
this unsteady feline all in tempests?
oh being a woman
i can repent me;
who teaches me?
why, love does-
and thus the word of God is spoken.


xxxxxx.