good news?

i went and did it! well state of health not that great; dying to have a go at filming etc before i die, as it were. old tony lit up like a xmas tree; now he's rushing round trying to help. just a good soul really. filmed him, told him he looked beautiful; it does! this digicam makes those of lesser luck look really good. also tried out dark light stuff. this had our 'kid' pt giggling, but it works fine. you get detail and lights are there but not flaring. its good; and this is just this little thing i got to learn on. so anyway everyone got to bend any obnoxious rules like damp noodles, got to keep money up! nearly finished mark cousins.

i been learning the various techniques, the evolution of films global. so i got my lexicon of how to make impacts as i need. but some of this drive to be 'avante garde' is a bit precious. and sorry but french films impressed me years ago with their boring empty scenes, sulky males, females who are obviously running from the old bins, and whatever it is they are trying to say would be much more noticeable if only someone said it. same with german films; of course i've only ever seen nazi stuff. really unpleasant, like insects doing water-ballet. their heroic men tableaus just made me aggravated. bad-tempered blokes with huge bums, tiny dicks, and bonces like big chamber-pots. it was just as well they all gabbled in foreign.

but i do like indian films; mother india i watched yonks ago. so you know i don't want to even try anything crazy or forward. what i want is to do stories; bloody good ones too. and i know i have to get real actors. i don't hold with this idea that actors just do as they're told. somewhere it says that if an actor argues sack the actor! thats mad and unfair. actors are the creators who enflesh my story, right? if one says he/she can't see what we're doing plus i can't explain it...then there's something wrong wiv the film and by alerting me to that fact the actor has done me a favour! thats one idea. second this book [another one] says acting in films is all bitty, an eyebrow, a tiny movement...well cousins shows me that some great films have been done wiv actors just allowed to rock n roll' as i think is natural and whatacting is like when 1. the actors are inspired and 2. they find the flaming story. isn't that real?

so another thing. some of the 'great' films...i know i'm an ignoramus...but they're horrible. well lets face it, we all glad the commies are gone? now lets put all those grey, sad, tiresome commie films in the back of the nastiest museum and celebrate! like bollywood!

and there was this famous director who got this poor guy to repeat his bits til the fellow died of boredom; now thats abuse. and mum told me ages ago how they used to kill horses; not just ben-hur [which millions of english ladies won't ever watch because of the horses] but also battles and that in russian type films.

oh jesus now i've given myself a case of filming poor horses as the old ones thought of them. that and nuking spain. [we like donkeys. ]

oh well i'm in for it now.