a loose end

what it was gay asked me what i thought a universe ruled by evil would be like? and i told him. so this is where that started, the good overthrown, the heavens =hells etc. see? an innocent being led step by step until it appears she is as cruel and awful as possible. but of course now you see how he did it. i might even be taught that rubbish by him on earth, this life, in that foul attic flat. and taken up there it all trips out of my mouth so swiftly, and like any child i was unaware that i'm set up!
but in fact there was more to it. the evil don't know this, but he used to go to to the pictures on the walls and they were not the same as those on the table. i saw that on the table the angels wept in flames and were ruined. the blest evil stood in their black heavens and mocked and rocked on their sufering. thats what all of us saw. but in the walls and in the liitle room he shoewd me the rest of it. sort of over time? the evil had their backs to those pictures, you see.
the evil get exactly the same. it sort of reverses. they hate the white heavens, but thats what they get in the end. and they wind up in flames there. or try being stupid and hang on to their ugly horrible black heavens? asking for the opposite of what they really want? so they ask for pain, fear, madness, horror? and as i have already said, when they get too big for him, he shuts them in, switches off their powers, and thatsit.they find they got exactly what they asked for. they too end inflames. worse, gay suddenly told me he can't conceive his own end. so it must never end either, nor be limited in size. because he is GOD, you see. and all this is his great pleasure forever. and thats what we are all for. you see he hungers for our suffering, as we ALL hunger for any kind of goodness. so we all sin. but to go without any goodness [ie suffer with no reason or relief is to obey his divine will, because you see existence is evil. well except his. because everyone but him is fucking stupid and therefore deserve it. his exact words.

and how? oh he loves the war of the good and the evil. its fun! but both lose. always. we can be fodder, will be fodder. for war, torture, and flames. NOW YOU SEE WHY REINCARNATION IS EVIL RULING.we forget, don't know. are destroyed over and over. and yes, forever and ever and ever. i bet you now see why Anat-Anattas must be protected. why 'death' is actually a bloody good idea? because he never lets us finally die. one day when its so unimaginably terrible i can't say it; thats when i reckon he plans to bring back the good gods....let them suffer forever in that!

nasty old buggar.