we go on a bit more

so where'd i get to? yes so at the dawn of this the last creation by a white Dove loads of things went wrong. Yetzoah chased off Father Seabreeze; captured the So and strode through the top registers [ the walk of the Holy Spirit] blasting the spirits and ruining them. all male on this top level. so of course you remember whatevers above affects all below? the lower registers [the heavens of the Son] were badly affected. At the main entrance of the Father [dove] Satan now back in his proper place also woke. and i was there; a kind of gingery kittenish thing when i first woke. it all felt beautiful and peaceful. we were many thousands, all on little crosses [white] but as flowers. i remember longing to hear the voice of God, tender and amusing. i was so full of longing that he should like me. we were all quiet and i think none of us could open our eyes until our Fathers voice woke us. but i knew that all creation was peaceful, verdant, every soul house beautiful, peace everywhere. but then time passed. long and long. we all i think began to be anxious, a little afraid. then a cool soft voice spoke. it was not what we were meant to hear. i did not know this voice. it was Satan. he said' so i am God by default'. we waited. and he began to curse, swearing terribly. as he went on his voice grew louder and louder, and his curses about God fried us all alive. our appearances were ruined, i remember the life of my spirit flew out. just as i died i tried to say 'love' but could not. and it was ruined. the rule of evil that hates the 'good' had begun. years later Gay told me he'd been there too. he said 'but some of us thrived'. he meant the devils. and he hinted they'd conferred and then rushed through creation destroying any beauty or food or peace. he said we'd all been dead for centuries. so they'd set it up to suit themselves. ie punish the good.

so thinking about this its why everyone is either black within or gray. its very rare now to see a pure white-within. so this was all centuries ago.


Gay said i was easy to find. now you know why.