hm.

just figured something out. it may help someone in the future?

look gay says the good [anyone pretty, civilised, sane] are really evil? or they got it in them? okay he then says the evil are secretly somehow the good? so they damned as well? right, then your answer; if any be possible, goes something like this. everybody then is evil. evil is infolded in all; either by bad habits, or by power crazed scheming, whether to be 'god' of either sort, they do but try to defend themselves, get nice places? but thats just commonsense? which is good.[yes, but don't tell him that]

but then he teaches them the dynamic concepts? you know 'you have to be kind to be cruel, you have to be cruel to be kind, for the cruel are always the winners, it is the kind who make you blind. one day the kind will be blinded, so that they shall not ever find, that they the kind are the cruel, and it is pity which always kills'...thats how the dynamic concepts starts. it ends that only the cruel are fit to be god, because basically they got there first. right? so to be absolutely kind[cruel] to the absolutely kind[cruel] you have to be infinitely cruel?[kind]. then go back over that and stick in your good and evil. that is why when brent1 pitied me i began to remember, and when i remembered that particular, i loved him. and gay saw it, so brent1 he was dropped into that sea of blue radiance? i saw gays anger; and prayed satan to put this my friend back in his own place? because pity it is forbid, so is kindness, and the fact that i frequently love people always enrages gay. who is god and stays god by his frightful cruelty. so under him only the cruel are truly evil. but then they must not get too big for their boots. in the end he destroys all possible rivals. because gay is a shocking coward; or why do you lot suppose he did all this to a child? also because i'm the Queen. and because Queens kill wasps, when they are not blind to the fact that it is a wasp. he told me himself only one who loves him can kill him. one who pities him will be able to. and that when the kind see the first thing they do is blind the bloody cruel so they can't do it anymore....which just about describes me, doesn't it? so now i begin to guess why he chose me. i can destroy him? thats why i suffer? but thats mad! if he'd given me somewhere nce and left me to believe i was a scullery maid for all time i wouldn't ever have tried to stop him! in ny case its rubbish. the cruel are blind in their hearts. the kind nurse either cures the blind or knocks spots off the cruel until they stop. but there's a lot more to the DC's than just that.

so what you do is say you are evil. just say it. so its a lie! isn't that good? its true anyway; or which of us can say they NEVER sinned in all history? not one.

so the good can say they evil; because he said so. the evil can say it too, after all thats true. that gets one lot of hells out of the way. the other thing you then do is say; but i like my sins sweet, i like my cruelty scented, and in particular i want as much sex [sin] as possible.
then belt up and wait. whats he going to do? give you permission to have what you want....because now you've agreed with him, haven't you? all it takes is a little white lie;which in any case is the properly black truth! and whats he going to do? he's a liar too!

so thats all you have to do. lie like a trooper, get well away, and then do as you want. just don't ever ask for forgiveness. because i'm the only idiot who still believes in that....dunno why. i never got it.