the me's

about pleasure and pain. what got me thinking about it wasthat description of purusha as joyless. they never know joy out there. what an indictment of the gods! to be happy is not to feel pain!

you and i, dear seeker, know at once that heaven should be serene yet knowing joy. there should be friendship, loyalty to one's teacher, everything true, no nasty cheats or frauds. we know by intuition that even animals are entitled to humane treatment. i have already told you that seabreeze made insects to show us what evil looks like so we can avoid it. now an insect is the lowest you can go [or virii, actually, but thats another realm. for man its insects.] so gay has fixed it so the higher a man or god goes the lower they fall. conversely the more evil they be the more like insects they become. that is why 'god' appears with a great booming as an insect. a stag beetle thing. if you deny him, you fall, if you accept you are evil. get powers etc. but finish insect also. you can guess i refused; but didn't deny. i know all right. and also know how he hates it, was forced. so i said the magic words, sod off.
the fact is gays' done the bloody lot. yes in the fifties in that attic though all these beings think its the way things have been from the beginning. but it is not.
heaven is no more. all you get is more and more awful troubles and problems and cheats. judgment day is every day, but they don't know. even the high spirits see, but don't understand. and i do; but i a rebel be. so i can look at a spider and not kill if its a good guy. knowing it will die in due course and begin its long sorrowful journey all over again. did it sin? no unless you are gay, who murders all good things. like good spirits, heaven, sanity, innocence and joy.and beauty. don't be pretty, girls, be not too handsome, dear seeker. he'll kill you immediately. or you surrender it in exchange for power; safety, as you suppose. but you are wrong.

well have you jumped in sweet joy ever? perhaps when your baby was born. perhaps when you found the one you loved also loved you. thats all. yet you will be terribly punished for that joy. and all are watched with microscopic vision.

so now we see why these wise are not wise enough. or where do they show you that goodness is being driven out of the universe? not just slowly disappearing on earth. everywhere pal. but they know uncsly; stating that happiness =vanishing forever into something that sounds uncommonly like a bloody rock.

what about pleasure and pain. well at some point in the past i stood in siege perilous [didn't know i was god] and said the seven significant laws. now i can't recall them all, thefirst was that beauty shall be driven out of paradise o return when it is wise. so gay opens heaven to the ugly, ie devils, on account they are ugly and therefore wise. that is evil is wisdom. another encapsulated the physics of matter or possibly the spiritlands? not sure. anyway one was 'pleasure and pain' are the same; two sides of the same coin?

what that means in practice is that he can give you the opposite of what you ask for, the thing you don't deserve, or the one you don't ask for. but essentially you can say they are conducted by the same nerves to the same brain. to some extent, yes, it depends on your ideas ehich you perceive. but not entirely opinion. or do you really think glory in heaven means the same as being burnt alive in hell? of course not. but now you see how dangerous it is to ask gay for anything. why can he get me to do these things? i am not cruel, but absolutey hypnotised and everything he demands [he tells the me's these are already the laws which she must understand and obey in order to be properly damned and therefore saved?] is insane if you follow it. but makes perfect sense when once restored to reason and all grown up you see he is hideously cruel and simply providing himself with a universe of victims.
so anyway lets look at the me's next.

well there are several. i think maybe five. but i'm pretty sure he's got another completely invisible. anyway they all little girls, the eldest [by sight, these ages are false, they been kept like that. i don't know how]. is mistress infallible. she is just that, infallible. she's maybe 12? she's far out, on the edge of creation far above [her version of creation is diffeent from everyone eles's]. but she never helps me. i think she is nearly reduced to a machine. the second is ladychild, right above me as i write. she's 5, but huge...but sideways? so she's really old and powerful. and about to die, he wouldn't have told her to go and be god on her own right here unless he was about to end her. she's having trouble understanding me, the earth, the most basic commonsense eludes her. but she is thinking. the little one always alone with him, the evil ones watch when he lets her become god properly but paralysed; and then he devours her heart or brain? horror and despair so black. they see him as the dragon he is. and i have heard them being sick. and he tells her she must suffer forever. she is 3. and mad with longsuffering. she's the one full of black magic in nursery rhymes and tales. she is very close. i tried to kill her, but like me she comes back. another far far far above he's had opening up strange alien places, 'to find god'...he's always trying to find out secrets, etc. she's got the message, though. thats one gay i killed right off. she looked at him dead and run away. been heading towards me as fast as she can go. remember there's more than one me, levels etc? so there levels of gay also. anyway she's 5, and has realised; he approaches, she says no. thats a first, and look all he seems to do is follow her around, persuading, threats,,,,but he has not murdered her so far. so thats your clue. say no. he has got it all by making people do things 'of their own free will'....though you'd be surprised how many states count as free will with him!
then there's ruins. she's safe now, maybe 2? 5? can't tell, she's in an awful state.
then the time master, also safe. but he has another; cos can still fuck around with time. then there's that one in the gigantic dark room? only just found that one, maybe 4? and there's a couple [?] of babies...real babies; unable to speak. lastly there's a judge? a nit who's swallowed it all and is currently shrieking curses in the form of a small black eagle being 'evil'....no idea that the real gods are black eagles..and began good. and wil return to good, if only they take this medicine.
now it seems to me that brent1 approached another? recently? not here, must be r3? she/i was admiring a tree. the cheeryblossom tree? it was summer the sky was blue? he stood until she noticed him. hey! he's read this blog! instantly she put him in ants; following the laws she's been taught! and he said no! i wonder...i think he tried to teach her its wrong, cruel. anyway i hope he persuaded her not ants...i think she must be very alone, alien in some ways? or maybe just young. but older somehow than the others? well good on you king, if u learning from this blog. and you going the right way if you read it in future and went and found her. if he could turn that one rebel....she's the eldest. maybe 13? then this future me; all grown-up. seems nice. then theres me! aged 58 and all woke up and seriously angry about all this. so thats about the lot i think.

all you have to remember if you meet one is they need to grow up! become adults. and then tell them they been subjected to hypnosis. and that means 1. they had no free will. and that they are saved. tell them nan says come home. and then we kick that nasty man out of our universe.and tell them 2. they got the powers, even the awful knowledge. so its the devil been trying to damn god and all gods nice friends. say no more. let them drift on...when they do wake they might be dangerous to be near; until they figure it out everyone will seem like foe. each one has powers, i dunno what; but none ALL the powers of god. if you can escort them to a place of safety but DON'T let them drift on dreaming. they got to grow up. time for school, or nursery. treat them all as desperately sick. and when they look grown-up and tell you to stop; you stop. and wait. it may be better not to reunite. whats gay going to do with several Queens with god powers, all wide awake, stingers risen, full of hate, and heading straight for him?

amen. and you evils can shut-up and piss off. this saves you too. say amen and thank god, you daft arseholes.