which?

now it is gay who is the liar. although he hardly ever lies to me; but i was a child in terrible distress; so i expect i didn't notice. when he says heaven is really hell, an hell is really heaven, you understand you're supposed to close your eyes to feel the diffeence? otherwise you'd know they're both ghastly. a hell black, empty, with nasty things happening only feels like heaven if you shut your mind to the suffering and horror. that is; be cruel. feel your triumph; you are evil, and evil rules...but open your eyes and see where you are. look in your heart and know you are vile [which is life spelt wrong] and you see truly that you don't want this. and now you know you're really insects...is it heaven? don't be ridiculous.
as for the heavens i remember; i wouldn't say they were hells, exactly. but barren, empty, regularly dominated and destroyed by these satanic yobs who want power power....and then turn it into hell, exactly as before. the good, though mark you none are perfectly good, all, even the sweetest angel, they all got somehing of power crazy scheming and harbour cruel vengeance; of course they do! they have been thrown out [the children of the kingdom are cast out, and their places given to dark and violent men..] of heaven, but its theirs, given every suffering, but they are innocent, led astray everywhere, because they are not taught, why the bloody hell wouldn't they be angry? the darkside rebelled against their destiny of infinite pain,yet do the same to those who had nothing to do with it! who has learned? no-one!
anyway you see again how jesus knew? and where is his rebellion? it is not! and now EVERYBODY is going into infinite pain!

but i rebel. because its gay is secret god. and did all this to all of us. so heaven is full of moral rules til you go crazy. it is silent. boring. still no food. you know i think i may be wrong that satan made it all empty of food. he's not that gormless, surely? i got an idea that it was father seabreeze' who quite simply didn't expect it to go on long. so he never made any food source for them; or nothing to last. anyway, you see the heavens of zion are deserts of diamonds. though all are jewish or have been or are counted righteous, they are nomads one side and wait and wait in the old dress; but don't know why. i think they get born again, like we all do. allahs heaven big, dusty tenements, a few nasty old men. but i like the white horses. there's no food, no women, no wine. not even singing. dullsville.
and i've been in many jesus type heavens. many many buildings. lots of senseless singing, not much jesus; who is never the right one. and when you called to be reborn you just sink straight through the floor; and as you go your final sight is jesus and his gang all black with ruby red eyes! those heavens are more like illusions than the others. and equally short of tenants. very high you feel overcome; you can't think or you feel suffocated? they too high; so no-one goes there. and all have light, ythough it is also in chains. and all everywhere are frightened. so you close your eyes and thats what you find. fear and confusion.so in that way yes they are hells. but not i'm happy to say, at all married to insects.

so the heaven i have just had made for me by elohim is really heaven,but it is mine. i will defend it accordingly. i call things by their right names. so when i tell you it is heaven it is. what is hell also i say; and it is true.

now elohim has built it; so he can visit when he wishes. if i don't make it then its his. you know well that zion has been my friend for yonks, so he is also welcome. allah can tell his people AN CODICIL to the koran; to wit; be nice and FAIR to women and its okay to live in your own century; and anyone who doesn't gets a choice of a day with gay or a chat with gerry. amen. once he's done that i have no quarrel with allah. i remember he's been a good friend in the past. also satan and yetzoah; and people or gods like brent1. only show me i can love you, and i will. but keep the things that give me the habdabs outside. just common courtesy, you know. and for the rest as you get better one by one, rest, food, a laugh, a lover, something sensible to do; like sort out this bloody mess?

so how glad are we that elohim he built it! he made 'all that matter'? and he did! look at your world! food! civilsation! laws sometimes nearly sane! other people! animals! music! he's made for me something that will work! now you know this what do you want to do? i know! lets sing a song for elohim, my friend god!don't worry its defended...no-one gets in til i fetch them.

so. thats us, the gods. thats heaven. all now you turn. we make war on that thing gay. now from here on i tell you some things from my past. but only whats strictly necesary. and also your futures. which right now is grim reading. but the way out from that future is here; and you know there is a chance...that singing was your different future; trying to tell me you will exist.

so gay said; 'why should they get what they want?'....nice old thing, what? just so he doesn't, basically.