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now all this seems to you utterly vile and disgusting? i know. but this is what gay set up using my poor smashed godmind in that attic. but you see you are not smashed or hypnotised or beaten or starved or driven mad? i haven't pulled you out and taken you as a child to all different realms and times? i haven't demanded of you evil laws? all this hell he made; and used my various selves to do it.

so this is the truth. yes, its horrific, that you find it horrific tells me you are one of mine. so its nasty. but i will work on you like medicine? you find all this repellant? you are becoming good. you condemn gay want him damned? then you are becoming judge. you see how the gods were trapped and ruined? feel pity for them, want to stop this meaningless suffering? bang, you are above themm.

when now you practise your contacting/growing methods you know what you doing, you know what to expect. and that you DON'T have to accept. the word no is a good thing at times. it sounds the same in all times and places and tongues, you know.

now you are warned and armed. and when you die you will find they look to you for help. give it. don't seek power....in fact by the time i close this blog; or just have finished this, your form will be man, your body non-insect, yoour mind semi-god, your abilities as you develop them. out from this world from now on may come new gods. gods not evil. gods not insane with morality. gods who love women too. gods who stick together, build civilisation. and who can love and know passion with others too. if it sounds human, think like this. our world, even our sex lives, even our science....is way ahead of them.


unless of course you fancy falling in worship of beetles? no? this is medicine. yours. drink it. reflect. and carry on becoming a god. refuse it, choose falsehood and you will end a burning spider [the good] or a black thing devouring other black things. which one is hell? they both are, aren't they? so now you hate gay. about time.