on satan and yetzoah.

too cold to sleep. now you know satan's nature was reversed? so him all strict and stern and believing in punishments was meant to be damned by both good father seabreeze and that nasty general cruel? but his nature it was reversed? so he thinks he's evil. and yet undamned by the potty sea-eagles he rules all out there. he's the most beautiful god, no, really. blonde, blue/green/stately. and all he is is now 'the son' and christ; in his own way, to those who 'choose evil'. but i tell you he never seems to hurt anyone. mends things broken. sits in his cave up on the white mountain, playing with frogs [the poor good again] and nasty snot green devils. but he keeps it in good order. my impression is he's very lonely. you didn't know that; that the gods live in caves? well some do. the dwellings, like the food, gone. so his atmosphere i have to say, is awful. but he is polite, intelligent, and only to those who keep on being 'good' in his presence does he punish...but when you look he gives them a satanic version of whatever it is they asked for. but now you see he knows what gay has in store for him too. [a la pre-existence judgement by gay?] so look in his eyes. that is despair. gay is lord; and frequently shows satan that fact. its horrible, i will not shame him and tell you that. but he who was lord is lord no more. a suffering slave like all the rest. yes in those small universes; mostly brought about by what seems suspiciously like black magic; i kept him out.was 'god' so i could. always when i'm male i win. gay hates females. and paid for that by equal time on the other side of the coin by being kept in quaratine [they said 'aargh! she's got the measles! and i believed them!for 15 billion years] oh yes, gay fixed it there's two sides, two versions of the same super-reality. so you see i have been awful to satan; and whenever he's tried to help me i get it all wrong. i'm either stupidly good, or think he's evil....now you see i'm just decent, and he's as much a victim as anyone else.so you see ugly dark things happen wherever he goes. but no-one ever asked HIM, do you like this? so you see gay has got one me. now this one is brigh, maybe 12? she knows all the dynamic concepts, laws and so forth. so she/i stands on his hand and tells him what to do...and he does it. not such a bad lad, then, is he? whats all wrong is me! whoever heard of a child being god? yet thats all they got. and that little golden girl? as much like me as you please! she's even somewhat cockney! what she doing? trying to mend the place and help him be saved! well lets hope i tell him to stop turning people into frogs. thats antisocial. he knows his future well enough. he was in the pre-existence place; but you know i think an think. i don't he was there for the whole thing. remember gay damned the good? yes, but after they had all fled. so no-one knew but me [and i forgot] and those evils left to listen. but then as i have said, he damned them as well. so you see if i choose i choose satan, who i see never asked to be evil, is afraid also, and look, tried to save me not once but twice, yes, just a couple of years ago! so if you think he seems not to despise women, makes mistakes like anyone else; do you see he's better than jesus who told you all he was good.....and wasn't? well i hope he doesn't turn me into a frog. if he does i shall poo all over his nice clean floor until he kisses me back into a lady. and then i won't half slap him.

then there's yetzoah. now i have to come clean and tell you there is a significant possiblity that i have got all muddled up with yetzoah. thats because i remember being him in various times and places. no, i don't understand it either. but it means i can tell you EXACTLY what its been like for him. hang on a sec. i need to think it out carefully, cos i must not get you muddled. brb.